Benedictine Presence: A Vision of Peace

Whole-Hearted Obedience

2012-01-23T09:13:00.002-06:00

In the Latin text of the Rule of St. Benedict, today's selection from Chapter 5--On Obedience contains three words that caught my attention: trepide (fearfully), tarde (slowly), tepide (half-hearted). Each of these words is preceded by the word non, implying that these words should not describe the monastics obedience. A person is not to obey with fear, hestitation or half-heartedly. This is a life that calls for full commitment.

These words have always caught my attention since I would like to believe that in most cases I do face life without undue fear, slowness or a partial commitment. I strive to be fully invested in life--at least when I am my best self.

What are those things that stop me from this goal? What are the challenges that crop up for me that cause me to pause and lose my way?

I find for myself that whenever I lose sight of my values or begin to think that I have it all together--it is time to start becoming concerned because I have actually lost everything. I need to remember to set aside time daily to just be and refocus so that I can continue on the journey whole-heartedly, full of life.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

The Way to Life

2012-01-03T10:30:00.002-06:00

See how the Lord in his love shows us the way of life. RB80.Prol. 20

The way of life...the way to life...the secret of a happy fulfilled life.

Seeking life seems to be an age-old quest. There are stories and legends of heroic journeys in search for the key to life--the answer to what gives purpose to one's life. I have been a life-long seeker myself...always searching for that something that would make life complete.

In the time of our desert ancestors, young monastics would travel days to reach an elder who would impart a word to them--some secret piece of wisdom that would carry them for their journey.

Who are our wisdom figures today? What can I do to bring a word of life or encouragement to someone else on the road?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Run in the Light

2012-01-02T10:34:00.002-06:00

Benedict does not seem to be a fan of half-hearted commitments. He poses the image of running four times in the Prologue of the Rule. In the first three instances it is an image for fleeing something--the darkness (of sin and self-will) [v 13], former deeds [v 22], waiting too long to change [v 44]. The fourth reference to running [v 49] has us impelled by the power of the unspeakable sweetness of the delight of love. It seems to imply that before I am ready to fully accept God's love in my life, I must first turn away from some of my current tendencies and preferences. In a sense, it is an invitation to prepare the soil of my life by practicing running from what is not of God so that when God's true presence does appear not only am I ready to accept it joyfully but there is also space in my life for it.

At the beginning of this new year, I am invited to look at my current life and see what adjustments are necessary to be more open to God's presence daily. This is not a quick plan to lose 20 pounds in 3 months or to declutter a little to simplify my life for a day or two but a life-long plan of action.

What am I willing to revise today to make more space for God in my life?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Goodness of Life and Wisdom in Teaching

2011-12-20T09:00:00.002-06:00

Among the qualities set forth in the election of an abbot--or leader--are goodness of life and wisdom in teaching. So example and teaching are essential for leadership.

Benedict understood that the example of a life lived according to his principles and values would be an effective reinforcement to sound teaching. It helps me to be able to see concretely how the concepts of the Rule look in daily life.

Although I may want to be inwardly directed and centered on Gospel principles, I need living role models that can show me the way and that can also help me get back on track when my way may deviate.

People are always in need of heroes and role models to show how to walk the path to true happiness. Today in considering the example of our leaders, I need to reflect on who might be considered true examples of Christian living for me. How am I being an example of this for others?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Promising Stability, Fidelity to Monastic Life and Obedience

2011-12-12T14:28:00.002-06:00

At the time of profession, the monastic makes three vows: stability, fidelity to monastic life and obedience. These signs of monastic commitment color our daily life.

Stability: Our promise of stability assures that I will be present long term--I will be there when things are good and when times get a little rough. I commit to be around no matter how hard things get or how messy life can become. I can also count on others to be there also. It is part of what goes into making a life commitment to one another. It gives me the freedom to grow and permission to be vulnerable to others. It gives me the assurance that those I am committed to will be there day after day.

Fidelity to monastic life: This vow calls forth daily conversion in my life. If I am to be faithful to this new way of being, I need to work at it every single day. I need to continually explore ways that allow me to see God's presence in Scripture, in creation, in those around me, in daily life. I have to be open to the many possibilities and opportunities which this faithfulness calls forth in me.

Obedience: I have to be willing to put down my own ideas, my own ways of doing things and be open to the wisdom of others. These others can be my Prioress, other community members, or the community as a whole. I need to develop my listening skills so that I can hear beyond the words. It is important to be able to listen to the care and concern of others, to be able to hear their encouragement or words of advice.

These three promises are aspects of our daily life in the monastery. They are also values that can be an important part of daily life in general. In families, offices, teams and classrooms, the freedom to grow, commitment to core values and adherence to the wisdom of the group are essential.

How am I living out my commitments today?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

On New Beginnings

2011-11-28T13:11:00.002-06:00

Yesterday was the 1st Sunday of Advent...the beginning of a new year for our Church. Coming a few days after Thanksgiving and Black Friday and just before Cyber Monday the beginning of Advent can often seem like just a little bump on the road on the way to Christmas.

This year, the 1st Sunday of Advent was truly memorable since that was the day designated for the implementation of the 3rd edition of the Roman Missal. Although many faced this day with a mixture of excitement and concern, the first liturgical weekend is now behind us and all went fairly well. Yes, there were a few mistakes and some awkward moments as we all tried to remember the appropriate new responses--or juggle multiple sheets and books but overall it was good.

Our monastic community took an extra leap in also revising our Office books (common prayer books) this past weekend. So now even the psalms which we had been praying together for years have a few new words or phrasing that is a little different. We had been working towards revising our books for a few years so in one sense it was a welcome change and exciting--although still one more new thing.

We are learning patience with ourselves and others as we pray together. We are grateful for the wonderful gift of the liturgy. We are most grateful to God for providing the grace, strength and insight needed to remember what is most essential in our faith.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Needs vs Wants

2011-11-11T08:42:00.002-06:00

It is written: Distribution was made to each one as he had need (Acts 4:35). RB80.34.1

I seem to be a thing magnet at times. Even though I try very hard to limit what I have, use or acquire, things seem to pile up little by little around me. This is especially true of paper, books, and gadgets. As much as possible, I try to limit the amount of stuff that tends to accumulate around me but it often seems to be a losing battle from the very beginning.

Paper, books and some tech gadgets (cell phone and laptop) are a natural part of my various ministry commitments. After all, how can I cook without a printed recipe, shop for supplies without a written list, or produce financial reports without multiple spreadsheets and graphs?
There is a point beyond which I can be either hanging on to unnecessary paper or hiding behind an overwhelming pile of stuff just to look busy or important.

Benedict invites me today to work on simplifying rather than increasing the amount of clutter and stuff around me. No amount of things is ever going to fulfill all of my needs and make me feel complete. I need to step back and listen to God's voice within me that calls me to rely on God's grace rather than depend on things for my security and value. In heeding God's invitation to simplify my life, I am making myself open to God's will in my life.

How am I listening to God's voice today?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Love for the Weak

2011-11-03T08:32:00.002-05:00

Rather, as the Apostle says: Let love for him be reaffirmed (2Cor 2:8), and let all pray for him. RB80.27.4

We all have our times of weakness, when our frailty seems to be closely connected with our identity. It is good for me to remember that during these times although life may look bleek it is not a time to dispair.

Today's selection of the Rule, which is from the disciplinary section of the Rule, reminds the community that it is at the time when one is that weakest that the love and concern of the group needs to be reaffirmed in order to gently guide the wayward or weak back into relationship. I know that when I begin to wander away from the boundaries set by the norm it is time for me to reach out to others and ask for extra support.

What does this support look like? It does not necessarily have to be anything spectacular or flashy,,,it can be taking time to listen to another's concerns, it can be a smile, a hug or a touch of the arm. It only needs to be some genuine expression of compassion or concern for the other. Just letting the person know that someone cares. I know that for me these brief moments of connection allow me the space and confidence needed to reassess my current situation and move forward in the future.

Whenever possible, I try to be that connection point for others also. It is in these encounters that we find surprising strength at times. How am I being a connecting point for others today?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

On Being Lukewarm in Life

2011-10-25T11:20:00.002-05:00

Being lukewarm...that is not an appealing image. In general, things should either be truly hot or truly cold. It is a sign of total commitment to whatever is being considered. Lukewarmness is more like sitting on the fence because I can't get up enough energy to care one way or the other about an issue. It is neutrality--but not in a good sense. It is closer to apathy than detachment.

I have never considered myself lukewarm about anything in life until recently. For me, this state of not caring can be instructive. When I find myself not really caring about life, myself, or other things, it is a good time to start paying attention to my thoughts, my attitudes and my current pastimes. If I am careful, I can trace back the beginnings of this state of nothingness in my daily life. It is usually not anything large and flashing rather tiny, subtle decisions that eat away at my spirit little by little. I don't want to reside in this state for long (if at all).

Today's task is to pull myself back from lukewarmness and fully engage in life. What can I do to recommit to that is important for me in life?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Acknowledging the Holy Trinity

2011-10-12T09:57:00.002-05:00

We believe in a God who is Three-yet-One. Our God is three distinct persons (Father, Son, Holy Spirit) yet one divine Being. This part of our faith is a mystery. We will never fully understand it but we are invited to accept it as true in faith.

We live in the presence of this mystery. One of the visible ways in which we show our awareness of this reality and also our reverence to the Holy Trinity is the monastic custom of standing and bowing at the Doxology during our times of common prayer. It reemphasizes the reality of God's presence in our prayer together and in daily life in general.

What are some ways in which I can live my daily life in reverence to the Trinity?

Sr. Catherine

Silence and Humility

2011-10-07T09:50:00.004-05:00

When words are many, transgression is not lacking, but he who restrains his lips is prudent. Prov 10:19

The ninth step of humility encourages us to treasure silence. Silence is valued because it allows me to slow down my thoughts and to listen for God's voice in my daily experiences.

God speaks in subtle and quiet ways. When I am busy talking incessantly, thinking about what amazing remark I will make next, I find that I do not have the sensitivity necessary to perceive God's messages to me. I lose my ability to listen to God, others, and the world around me when I am occupied with only my own speech and concerns. When I am so focused on what I have to say and on my message, I often discover that it is harder to speak the truth gently and respectfully. I am in danger of playing with the truth or hurting another thoughtlessly if I am not careful.

Restraint of speech invites me to listen carefully and to think before I speak--something that I can easily forget to do. I do not need to share every thought or impulse that passes through my mind. I do not always need to be the center of attention or the greatest conversationalist. It is okay to sit back, listen, and reflect once in a while. As the book of Proverbs reminds us today, the prudent person (the wise and mature person) restrains their lips. That does not mean that they never speak but rather that speech follows reflection and thought. This restraint makes the person's words more valuable.

May I continue to grow in my restraint of speech and my appreciation of silence.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Humility--Facing Truth

2011-10-05T08:25:00.002-05:00

It is good for me that I was afflicted, that I might learn thy statutes. The law of thy mouth is better to me than thousands of gold and silver pieces. Thy hands have made and fashioned me; give me understanding that I may learn thy commandments. RSV.Ps 119.71-73

Humility invites me to face the truth about myself. There are many times when I would prefer to remain in my fantasy that I am in control of my life and destiny. The fiction that I am a self-made person able to maneuver successfully through life by myself. At these times, it seems as though MYSELF is all I need in this world.

In reality, though, I know a different truth. I am not self-sufficient. And I am rarely in control of anything...even when I think I am. I am both dependent and interdependent.

I am interdependent on others. I need others to help me think, to keep me honest and accountable, to balance me back into reality at times. I also need others to encourage me to stretch beyond what I might normally want to do.

I am dependent on God. Without God's love and mercy, I would cease to be. It is God's grace that allows me to experience any success or accomplishments I might achieve. All of life is pure gift from God.

Psalm 119. 71-73 (referenced in RB80.7.54) speak of the good that comes from learning humility through life. It is in realizing my dependence on God and interdependence on others that I am able to practice righteous living in the world. It is through acknowledging that I do not have all the answers or that I am not the expert on everything that I learn to listen to the wisdom of God and others and to be open to diversity. Everyone does not always have to see things my way. In recognizing my dependence on God, I learn how to live the commandments authentically in my life.

What am I doing today to remain open to God's voice in my life?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

True Humility

2011-10-04T13:16:00.005-05:00

The sixth step of humility is that a monk is content with the lowest and most menial treatment, and regards himself as a poor and worthless workman in whatever task he is given, saying to himself with the Prophet: I am insignificant and ignorant, no better than a beast before you, yet I am with you always (Ps 72[73]:22-23). RB80.7.49-50

Humility deals with the truth. It is the awareness of who I am without much pretense. It is an acknowledgement that in the great scheme of things I fall somewhere in the middle of the pile. I am not the best or the worst, the first or the last. In a sense, I am with everyone else in the middle somewhere...and that is really okay. My identity and worth is not necessarily attached to being #1 all of the time. It is actually freeing to just be with everyone else.

This is not a vote for mediocrity. It is just an awareness that it is only through God's grace that I possess skills, talents, and life. It is God's gift and constant Presence that allow me to be successful in my endeavors. All of my accomplishments are actually due to God's love and mercy.

The passage from Psalm 72[73] which concludes today's reading recalls the reality of God's constant presence and guidance in daily life. In the RSV Bible, verse 23 speaks not only of God's presence but also that God holds me by the hand--in a sense, leading me along the paths of life. This thought is comforting since it seems to say that if I am willing to let God lead me through life (rather than fight for an illusion of control) God will be there--not just sometimes but all of the time. What more could I ask for?

May I continue to grow in my awareness of God's presence in my daily life.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

On Being Accountable

2011-10-03T10:20:00.003-05:00

The fifth step of humility is that a man does not conceal from his abbot any sinful thoughts entering his heart, or any wrongs committed in secret, but rather confesses them humbly. RB80.7.44

Manifestation of thoughts (exagoreusis) is the ancient custom of revealing all thoughts, impulses and emotions present in one's consciousness. It is the way in which a sincere seeker could bring out hidden inclinations to be observed and if necessary eradicated. It was a way in which tendencies and impulses could be assessed before they became either sin, passions or ingrained patterns of being.

Although I was unfamiliar with the concept until after entered our community, I grew up with a sense of something similar to this practice. During adolescence, I discovered that a multitude of thoughts seemed always be traveling through my head. It was often easy for me to obsess on my thoughts--sometimes to the point of not being able to break the hold of these thoughts. The only thing that seemed to relieve some of my more insistent ideas was to find a trusted person to tell these obsessive thoughts to--or write them down if no one suitable was available.

What these actions did was get the thoughts outside of myself and allow me to look at them a little more objectively. I could separate from the confusion in my mind and see more clearly the direction toward which this chain of thinking was leading me. It also gave an ability to stop before I acted impulsively at times. Another benefit that I found in this getting stuff out of my brain was that if I could see it more clearly, I could also come up with an action plan that might help me avoid future problems. In a sense, it gave me the ability to be accountable. If a particularly troublesome idea kept emerging, I could make plans to stop it earlier in the future.

One of the new insights I received through this process was that the thoughts that I could either write down or share with another were less likely to present themselves again as readily. In a sense, if I knew that I was going to have to be accountable for the same impulse sometime soon I was less likely to fall prey to it. That is one of the benefits to the concept of manifestation of thoughts...there is an accountability factor that takes hold.

Today, I am grateful for the many ways in which I can grow in my self-knowledge and on my path to holiness.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

In the Sight of Angels

2011-09-29T08:03:00.002-05:00

This week the Church celebrates two feasts in honor of angels. Today is the feast of Michael, Gabriel, and Raphael, Archangels. On October 2, we celebrate the feast of the Guardian Angels.

St. Benedict reminds us today that God and his angels are watching us 24/7. When I was a young child, I had a very literal idea of what God's presence and the presence of the angels meant. I fully believed that God and the angels were with me everywhere and that they had a personal concern in my daily well-being. I found that a very comforting thought. Since I was an only child until the I was 8, I developed the concept that angels were my constant playmates.

Of course, as I grew older, I changed my perception of what this watchful care of God and angels meant to me personally. I found that I tended much more toward hiding from God at times--especially when I was wanting to run from God's presence and vigilance or when I was desiring a vacation my relationship with God.

Today, I want to be in closer union with God. I am tired of running away. I desire to live closer to my values and the qualities that I long to incorporate in my life.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Base Desires

2011-09-28T09:39:00.003-05:00

Truly, we are forbidden to do our own will, for Scripture tells us: Turn away from your desires (Sir 18:30). RB80.7.19

There are days when I seem to desire living in a fantasy world--times when daydreaming and constructing imaginary empires are the rule of the day. These are not necessarily my best
days--at least not my most productive days. On these occasions, I can spend hours planning the future and thinking of outcomes that are not meant to be.

Fantasy can quickly move me from reality. At times, my dream world can seem more appealing that what is happening around me. Benedict was aware of the tendency to desire to have things my way--with the outcomes that I can manufacture in my imagination. He uses a piece of wisdom from the book of Sirach. This verse comes from a larger section of pithy statements about the value of self-control and reflection in life.

One translation of this verse from Sirach speaks of following base desires and restraining appetites (NRSV) instead. What do I need to do to make sure that I am not following every whim or inclination that passes through my awareness?

I can practice observing my thoughts and become familiar with the source of my thoughts. Which thoughts or impulses are leading toward God and which can potentially lead me away from my true goal.

Become familiar with silence so that I can be more attuned to God's voice within my heart.

Remain connected with God throughtout the day--calling on God's assistance at random points of the day.

Sr. Catherine

The Fear of God

2011-09-27T13:19:00.002-05:00

The first step of humility, then, is that a man keeps the fear of God always before his eyes (Ps35[36]:2) and never forgets it. RB80.7.10

What is the significance of fear when considered in the context of fear of God? What does the fear of God mean? What does it look and feel like? Can fear ever be experienced in a positive light?

According to the Merriam-Webster Online Dictionary, one of the definitions of fear is to have a reverential awe of someone or something. This definition implies that I have an awareness of a separation between myself and the object of my awe. In looking at the fear of God, I recognize that I am not God and God is much greater than I am.

Taking this definition of fear, then, fear of God is an experience of being in wonder and awe at the magnitude of God. It is like being so aware of the immensity of love, goodness and compassion that reside within God and only being able to say WOW!!!!! or OMG!!!!! (as an expression of wonder to the point of speechlessness--rather than just as a comment).

Today, Benedict invites me to remember the great immensity of God not with trembling but with gratitude, reverence and awe. When I am honest with myself, I can readily agree that it is wonderful to recognize that God is with me in everything that I do and that God provides the necessary grace and strength needed to live well. It is when I forget and try to take back God's power that I can get into trouble.

During one of my lapses (where I was a little confused about whether God or Catherine was actually God), a friend of mine recommended a short fragment from the New Testament to remember--apart from me you can do nothing (from John 15:5). At the time I really did not find the quote particularly appealing but as I have reflected on this piece over that last few months I have come to appreciate the wisdom that is contained in those few short words. It helps me to keep my balance and perspective when I remember this line. It has also reminded me that the whole world does not necessarily depend on me.

As I look at the first step of humility today, I desire to continue living with an awareness of the fear of God.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Stability of Place and Heart

2011-09-21T08:57:00.002-05:00

The workshop where we are to toil faithfully at all these tasks is the enclosure of the monastery and stability in the community. RB80.4.78

At the end of this chapter, Benedict states that the place where all of these tools are to be employed is the enclosure of the monastery and stability in the community. Focusing on the concept of stability will bring us to a deeper understanding how the tools can be applied to all. There are two kinds of stability that can be examined--stability of place and stability of heart.

Stability of place can be seen as staying in one location--similar to the concept of the enclosure. It involves physical presence. I show up for all required events.

Stability of heart implies commitment and perseverence. I am ready to participate. I am fully engaged in all that happens around me. I am ready to stick around to see the fruits of my labor in this workshop.

One of the benefits of living with 20 other monastic women is that there are always plenty of live examples of all of the qualities mentioned in the Rule.

Sister Cabrini Boland is a wonderful model for us of stability of heart. At 91 years of age and after more than 70 years in our community, she is always an example of enthusiasm and wisdom. Recently, while wheeling Sr. Cabrini outside she asked to visit our St. Benedict statue and recited various passages from the Rule of St. Benedict. The ease with which she spoke these few short passages spoke of her long years of living the monastic way of life.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Living in Truth

2011-09-19T08:28:00.002-05:00

Rid your heart of all deceit. RB80.4.24

Never give a hollow greeting of peace RB80.4.25

Bind yourself to no oath lest it prove false, but speak the truth with heart and tongue. RB80.4.27-28

Wonder what our world would look like if corporate leaders or leaders of nations were asked to speak the truth from their heart when dealing with mergers, corporate buy outs or issues of world economy or peace? Would there be an increase in compassion and a decline in greed? Would there be less suspicion among people? Would there be an increased desire to work cooperatively since more honesty and openness would be present?

These are some of the questions that arose as I listened to our reading from the Rule of St. Benedict today (Chapter 4: The Tools of Good Works). Since most corporate officials or world leaders are unlikely to adopt this way of being, then what can I do to help my corner of the world? How can I act differently in everyday life to impact the world around me?

I can act truthfully in my dealings--being sincere and direct in speech and action.

Become aware of my motivations and my impulses so that I can be a person of integrity but not at the expense of others dignity and value.

Remain grounded in prayer. Pray before I speak or act so that my speech and actions might proclaim God to others.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Listening for the Spirit

2011-09-16T14:20:00.002-05:00

As often as anything important is to be done in the monastery, the abbot shall call the whole community together and himself explain what the business is; and after hearing the advice of the brothers, let him ponder it and follow what he judges the wiser course. RB80.3.1-2

In making community decisions, Benedict asks that the leader call everyone together to discuss anything considered to be important for the whole group. This directive does not imply that everything needs to be discussed as a group--that could be somewhat unwieldy, especially if the community is large or if there are many issues to be decided.

The emphasis on all being asked about important matters is to allow the voice of the Holy Spirit to be heard by the superior through whatever channels might be available. The leader is remain open to the possiblity that the youngest or the oldest member might have some insight that might otherwise be missed or glossed over if the decision were not put before the entire group. After prayfully hearing what all have to say on the particular matter, the final decision still remains with the leader to do what is judged to be the best for the group. There is no assurance or obligation to follow the advice received if the superior sees a different course of action than what is suggested. The community's input is totally consultative in nature.

This passage reminds me to remain open to a wide variety of alternatives when making decisions; whether they be personal or ministry based decisions. I am also reminded of the responsibility I have to share my thoughts and concerns about issues that may have an impact on my life and the life of others. I need to remember to share my insights respectfully and humbly, not attaching my entire self-worth on the outcome or on the brilliance of my reasoning. I recently heard someone compare sharing of opinions and insights in a group to offering apples (or some other snack) to others. If someone in the group does not particularly care to accept what I am sharing or offering, I can detach from my opinions enough to understand that the person is not necessarily rejecting me as a person. Thinking in this way can allow me to place enough distance between myself and my thoughts so that when someone questions my suggests or does not agree it's not about ME as a person but actually about the suggestion.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Leadership

2011-09-14T08:35:00.003-05:00

The abbot must always remember what he is and remember what he is called, aware that more will be expected of a man to whom more has been entrusted. RB80.2.30

Luke 12.35-48 gives us the scenario of a lord of an estate that is on a journey. The property is left in the care of the servants. When the master returns, the expectation is that the servants will be ready to open the gates and resume their responsibilites of service. The time of the return is uncertain so it is important to be watchful and aware at all times for the unexpected arrival. The servants do not want to be caught off guard because the potential for severe punishment would exist. The servant is expected to be ready at all times.

Benedict uses this passage to re-emphasize the responsibility that is part of leadership. This verse is the seventh time that Benedict reminds the superior of the duties inherent in leading a group. Benedict reminds the superior that since more has been placed in her care still more will be required in accountability.

Although I may not be the leader of our monastic community, there are still occasions when I am called to take on a leadership role for a specific group, function, or time. Here are some lessons that can be applied in my life:

Every occasion to lead comes from God--I am not in this endeavor on my own and it also is not dependent on ME and my amazing skills. It's actually more about God's grace active in the group.

I am only filling a needed role for a time.

Example and word need to be joined in order to better deliver the message.

Individual persons and respect are much more important than outcomes.

Leadership carries with it many rewards and great responsibility. When assigned leadership tasks, I need to remember what part I play in the larger picture and to rely on God for the graces needed for success.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Cutting Out Sin

2011-09-13T15:25:00.002-05:00

He should not gloss over the sins of those who err, but cut them out while he can, as soon as they begin to sprout, remembering the fate of Eli, priest of Shiloh (1 Sam 2:11-4:18). RB80.2.26

The superior is not to overlook the sins of the followers but address them as soon as they begin to appear. For most of my life, I have been a follower of rules. Although I am not terribly well disciplined or structured, I do understand how rules and guidelines make life function much more smoothly for families, teams, offices, classrooms, etc. Anytime a group gathers to interact there has to be a designated leader and agreed upon boundaries. Otherwise, life becomes utter chaos at best. Image trying to navigate traffic if everyone could set their own laws and standards of behavior.

Benedict understood that there needed to be some structures in place to deal with wrongdoing--whether it be intentional, through ignorance or through malice. He also understood that it is much easier to deal with issues before they become ingrained in us as habits or patterns. In his teaching, Benedict refers to the story of Eli and his sons from 1 Samuel. This passage places the sons of Eli next to the youth Samuel as a contract to one another. While the sons of Eli would abuse the people and even steal from the ritual sacrifice for their own benefit; Samuel is shown to be a youth committed to serving the Lord in the temple and being in close relationship to God. Samuel is called by God in the middle of the night and given a message for Eli about his sons and their behavior. Even after the message is delivered, Eli seems helpless in getting his sons to acknowledge their wrongdoing and repent. Therefore the sons of Eli are slaughtered in battle and Samuel continues to thrive in God's presence.

Although I might not be at the level of Eli's sons, there is a tendency within me at times to try to cut corners or at least to seek an easier way in life. It's okay to coast through life every once in a while (at least it seems like a good idea at the time). The problem is that once I start to cut corners--I quickly can get sloppy and lazy. What started out as a one time thing soon becomes a way of life. It is easier not to allow myself that much of a break in routine. I need to be watchful of the ways in which I can justify my actions and relax my normal patterns a little too much. Then it is easier to increase in virtue (which is my fundamental desire in life).

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Set Apart Through Good Works and Humility

2011-09-12T10:11:00.002-05:00

Only in this are we distinguished in his sight: if we are found better than others in good works and in humility. RB80.2.21

I like to be special and set apart. I like to be the one noticed, the one praised and held up for some reason.

Benedict today gives us the criteria for being set apart in community. We are to be raised to a different level of honor only if we are found to be better than others in good works and in humility. So, if I am looking to be praised then I need to make a conscious decision to serve others to the best of my ability and to be selfless in that service. I am to do the service freely out of compassion and concern not out of a desire to receive reward, admiration or adulation. Actually, in order for this to be a truly selfless act done in humility, it needs to be done with no expectation of any notice. I almost needs to be done quietly and secretly.

My tendency is to announce my good works every step of the way so that others can recognize the effort made. Unfortunately, as a friend of mine reminds me often, if I announce my selfless deeds they really weren't that selfless or meritorious from the start. Also, in these situations, I already received my acknowledgement, so probably most of the merit is reduced.

I long to be more generous in my actions and less self-centered. May God give me the grace necessary to accomplish this.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Running Toward God

2011-09-06T15:50:00.002-05:00

I have always been fascinated with things that move quickly--runners, rabbits, rushing water, airplanes. Things that move at a dizzying speed have always attracted my attention. I also set a goal on speed for myself. I think that what attracted me most about rapidly moving objects was the energy and force that are present. Since I am a very high energy person, I can easily relate to things that carry lots of vibrancy within them.

Today, Benedict speaks of running to do in obedience what will gain us eternal life while there we still have time to renounce our former way of life. There seems to be an urgency in this invitation to leave my former attitudes, ways, opinions behind and to start with fervor on this new path toward God and eternal life.

Part of me would like to believe that my decision to abandon my former way of life was a one time deal that was completed years ago when I entered the monastery. I am realistic enough to know however that this is an on-going, life-long process. That is both good and bad news for me. The good news is that I can always start over again and re-commit myself to this process of spiritual growth. The bad news is that I will never reach the finish line where I can just sit back and coast through life on my merit. That is not part of this journey.

My question today is: What can I do to help myself keep the initial energy of my original commitment going today?

I can set aside a few minutes daily to recall where God has blessed me each day.

I can call on God's grace and mercy to be with me during the day--something to do while I am waiting in traffic for the light to change, waiting for an appointment, sitting on hold on the phone.

I can remind myself to stop and take a breath (especially when I am in a frenzied mode about whatever is happening in life). The ability to stop and take a few breaths can do wonders to calm and refocus me.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Opening My Eyes and Ears

2011-09-02T10:27:00.002-05:00

Let us open our eyes to the light that comes from God, and our ears to the voice from heaven that every day calls out this charge: If you hear his voice today, do not harden your hearts (Ps 94[95]:8). RB80.Prol.9-10

Today's invitation is to open my eyes and my ears to God and God's grace in my life. It is an call to be alert and aware of what is happening both around me and within me.

Since I am an extreme extrovert, I find it easy to focus on what is going on in my environment. I get energized and engaged looking at all the pretty shiny things that are occurring around me--sights, sounds, movement, swirls of activity quickly grab my attention...until the next distraction comes by.

Part of today's proposal is to pay attention to the stirrings within me. That is something that I can easily ignore since I am busy with all the activity outside. It is in looking within, though, that I find God speaking in the depths of my heart. It is by going within rather that outward that I discover who I am called to be and where my strength and value lies.

This journey within does not seem as glamourous and exciting. Actually, it seems terrifying, at times, since I don't really know what I will find or if I will like who I am after the experience. That is where the challenge and the adventure are. When I can see this scary exploration as a new adventure I can focus on the new information that is unearthed and see it as growth both as a person and in my relationships. This reframing of the experience makes it more palatable to me since I am always looking for new experiences in life.

Psalm 95 invites me to open my ears and my heart to the voice of God within my life. What new adventure is God calling me to at this moment? May I have the courage to accept the challenge offered to me today.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

A Matter of Will

2011-09-01T08:10:00.002-05:00

Today we begin the Prologue of the Rule once again. We are back at the beginning for another cycle of reading and study.

The question posed today by the reading is: Willingness or willfulness--which of these would best characterize my personality and my life? Although the root word is the same, there a distinct difference between the two concepts. Willingness implies an openness that offers a possibility for change and growth. Willfullness connotes a tendency toward doing my own will--sometimes to my detriment. The will itself is a good but it is the way that I choose to use it that can makes the difference.

There are times in my life that have been highlighted by both. As I begin this new round,

am I willing to listen to God's voice inviting me to open my heart to the possibility for growth or am I choosing to cling to my own way of doing things?

am I willing to follow my community's way of doing things even when my own particular method seems to be more efficient?

am I open to the possibility that others around me might have a fuller vision of life and wisdom or do I insist on maintaining my own views, opinions and attitudes?

Today, as I begin this new reading of the Rule, may I be open to the possibilities of growth that are presented to me through life.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

A Rule for Beginners

2011-08-31T16:17:00.002-05:00

Are you hastening toward your heavenly home? Then with Christ's help, keep this little rule that we have written for beginners. RB80.73.8

This verse from the conclusion of the Rule with it's allusion to the letter to the Hebrews (Hebrews 4:11; 11:14-16) takes us back to the Prologue where we set out on the journey in the service of Christ. We have come full circle.

After having read, studied and prayed through the text of the Rule, I am reminded that I am still only a beginner on the journey. This is a life-long project--not a once in a lifetime event. There is no real graduation from the school of the Lord's service...there may be progress in the life yet there is no real completion of the course.

This realization can be heartening and disheartening in a sense. Heartening and encouraging, since there is no expectation of perfection along this road. All that is needed is to be willing to grow daily (conversion). There is always the assurance that right effort and intention are what is necessary for this life. It is discouraging in the fact there will always be something that can be improved upon. There is no coasting through life, if I am serious about my progress.

Now we prepare to begin another season of study of the Rule, starting with the Prologue once again...remembering that we are truly beginners on this journey.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Trusting in God's Help

2011-08-26T07:54:00.003-05:00

Trusting in God's help, he must in love obey. RB80.68.5

There are times in life when the tasks before me seem to take on a life and power of their own. They can seem to be insurmountable and beyond my abilities to accomplish. At times like this, my natural tendency is to become paralized by focusing on the immensity of the challenge rather than using the skills I have to break the "mountain" down into easily mastered pieces. This tendency to over-focus on my perceived deficit rather than my strengths and resiliency is pretty counter-productive because in the end I am usually fearful, confused and frustrated as well as overwhelmed.

This scenario can be turned around will a little bit of creativity and a realistic assessment of the actual issues involved. Benedict knew that there would be times when this could happen in his community, so he included Chapter 68 in the Rule which addresses the performance of what seem to be impossible tasks. In 5 short verses, Benedict acknowledges that a person might be asked to perform a challenging task (one that might seem burdensome and even impossible). He sets up a simple process for addressing the issue. First, the person is to humbly accept the task and try to fulfill the demand. If this proves to be too difficult, then the person may ask to speak to the leader and patiently explain what the obstacles being faced are. If even then the request remains, the person is to accept the challenge as being for the best and trust in God's grace to provide the strength and skills necessary.

When faced with a daunting task (or one that seems so to me), I need to remember to refocus, think and trust in God, in the wisdom of the superior and in the support of the community.

I need to refocus because obsessing over my frailty and sense of lack will only paralize me further. I need to take a breath and calmly look at the individual steps in a new and creative way. Once I can break the job done into multiple small steps than I can see my progress and also make the job for manageable. I don't need to climb the whole mountain in one leap--I can take it on step at a time. It also keeps me moving forward and out of paralysis.

Thinking puts me in control of the situation rather than holding me hostage to my fears. By assessing the task and getting a new perspective on it, I can chart the course that the project can take and even surprise myself with my own abilities.

Trusting in God, in the wisdom of leadership, and in the support of the community is important for me to remember because it is only through the grace of God and the love and support of others that I can do anything. Although I would like to believe that I am in control and self-sufficient, I need to remember that it is God alone who can provide what I lack within myself if I ask. Also I need to acknowledge that I do not possess full wisdom and others might see a latent talent within me that I cannot see yet. In trusting, even when asked to do what seems daunting, I have often surprised myself in my own strength and ability. I have been able to do many things that I never would have imagined.

May I always remember to trust in God's mercy when faced with overwhelming challenges.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

The Enclosure of the Monastery

2011-08-25T09:13:00.002-05:00

Today's reading from the Rule of Benedict (RB 67) addresses the separation between the monastery/monastic community and the rest of the world. The concept of fuga mundi or flight from the world seems to be connected with this idea of breaking from society, culture and the world beyond the gates of the enclosure.

While this is still true in some cases, our world does put us in contact with many of the issues concerning our lives today. Through the increase of technology and access to various forms of media, we have the world coming into our offices, living rooms and homes daily. This access is good since it does make us more aware of what is happening around us. It allows us to be able to pray for those who suffer, accompany those who grieve, take a stand against injustice and oppression.

It can also be a challenge to remain faithful to our monastic commitments. This new access to the world invites me to allow myself to find my strength within the tradition in which I have been formed. It encourages me to look within myself and the community to find my response to the world--a faithfilled, prayerful response. I wish I could say that I do this perfectly everyday...that would be a nice goal for which to strive. I can say that on my good days I can see myself growing in compassion and wisdom (even though sometimes it's only in baby steps).

I am fortunate to live with a group of faithful women who have shown me through their example that living this life can make an impact in society, culture and the world as well as within me personally. I pray to daily grow in my commitment to this way of life.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

On Wandering Through Life

2011-08-24T14:48:00.002-05:00

At the door of the monastery, place a sensible old man who knows how to take a message and deliver a reply, and whose age keeps him from roaming about. RB80.66.1

Then, there will be no need for the monks to roam outside, because this is not at all good for their souls. RB80.66.7

There are days when I am particularly anxious to find a distraction in my life...any distraction is fine, just something to relieve my boredom, make life interesting or amuse me when I really do not want to deal with the present moment. Benedict seems to be familiar with something similar occuring is his community. In setting up the role of the porter (receptionist at the door), Benedict clearly states twice that wandering, roaming around, or looking for distractions are not highly value qualities.

Benedict seems to say that this desire to escape the dailiness of life can be a sign of immaturity and is not helpful to the health of the soul. If I keep running away everytime something is difficult, then I am probably impeding my own growth--growth in holiness, growth in maturity, growth in virtue. I am never discover my true potential. I may miss many opportunities to both realize my own weakness and vulnerabilities and my inner strength.

I am a person who rarely wants to miss out on new adventures. If I can learn to focus on the potential for new experiences when tempted to run away and find something more interesting, I will see even the painful or the mundane as opportunities for greater growth and success.

When tempted to go through life hopping from distraction to distraction I need to remember to stop and ask myself: What new opportunity for growth am I trying to avoid.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Wisdom of the Young and the Elders

2011-08-18T09:29:00.003-05:00

Absolutely nowhere shall age automatically determine rank. Remember that Samuel and Daniel were still boys when they judged their elders (1Sam3; Dan 13.44-62). RB80.63.5-6

One of the blessings of my life is the opportunity that I have had to live with people of various ages most of my life. Growing up, grandparents, great-grandparents, and older relatives and family friends were always included as part of our home structure. Our home was multigenerational by design. Although I did not fully appreciate it at the time, this aspect of my early years has had a significant impact on most of my life and on building my character. I am grateful for the experience.

In my 25+ years as a member of this monastic community, I have also been fortunate to have developed many relationships across our various age groups. I treasure the many lessons that I have learned from our elders--lessons of faith, lessons of fidelity, lessons of courage, strength and grace. I am indeed very fortunate in this way.

Here are some of the bits of wisdom that I have learned along the way:

Life does not always have to move at a fast speed. There is a gentleness acquired in doing things slowly and thoughtfully.

Plan ahead for life--learn a hobby, develop some leisure time activities, keep acquiring new skills. It is important to have skills in place for a happy and healthy future.

Take time to listen. There is life wisdom to be learned in hearing stories from the past.

Remain faithful to values. There are many things that can clutter my life, I need to remember the essentials.

Be patient and loving--with others and with myself. Sometimes the hardest lesson is to remember to be patient with myself and not take myself so seriously.

What life lessons am I imparting on others today?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Do Unto Others

2011-08-16T16:05:00.002-05:00

Do to no one what you yourself dislike. New American Bible(NAB), Tobit 4.15a

This brief reference to the Tobit's advice to his son, Tobiah, is part of the foundation to today's reading from the Rule of Benedict. Today's passage is considering the fact that some who might visit the monastery from other monasteries might possibly request to remain as a member rather than as a guest. Benedict seems to understand that there are reasons where this might be appropriate but he does caution that care should be taken that the person to be received has the permission of their superior. He quotes this passage from Tobit which is very similar to the Golden Rule that many learned in childhood.

This is good advice for monastic life and also applicable in various other life situations. When on a team, good sportsmanship, even in the face of loss or unfair calls, is valued. In the business world, taking your competitor's prized employee is not always the best business move. Being so competitive that I have to be the lead in every performance--always being center stage is not necessarily a skill that will win me many friends.

I need to remember the needs of others. I need to continue practicing the lessons that I learned about sharing and being a team member when I was growing up. As our new academic years begin and as we prepare for the coming of autumn, I need to use some of those skills I learned as a child to navigate this world.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Promising Stability, Fidelity to Monastic Life, and Obedience

2011-08-12T09:32:00.002-05:00

When he is to be received, he comes before the whole community in the oratory and promises stability, fidelity to monastic life and obedience. RB80.58.17

In this chapter that addresses the reception of new members into the group, Benedict spells out for us the substance of this new way of life. The novice stands in the oratory (in a sense the place designated as the true heart of the monastery) before the entire group and publicly accepts stability, fidelity to this new way, and obedience.

Stability is the ability to remain focused to my initial intention. It is the ability to maintain at least a faint memory of the youthful fervor that inspired me to join in the first place. I need to remind myself of those first stirrings of God within my heart especially when the dailiness of life can threaten to undermine my resolve to be the best I can be.

Fidelity to monastic life calls me daily to reaffirm commitment to personal growth and to holiness of life. I need reminders at times of my progress (I am not the same person who undert00k this endeavor 20+ years ago) and to be willing to learn from mistakes and move forward even when life gets a little tough. I also need to ask for the humility necessary for those times when I need to rely on the community to help me through my days. A good sense of humor comes in handy on those days.

Obedience calls me to be a "listener." I need to be able to listen to God, others, myself, and daily experiences. These are all ways through which I can learn how to live a better and more sane life.

Although the promises that we take in community are specific to monasticism, the life lessons and values which are implicit within these are valuable for all who desire growth and peace within their lives.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Aiming at Fairness

2011-08-08T10:35:00.003-05:00

The abbot, however, must always bear in mind what is said in the Acts of the Apostles: Distribution was made to each one as he had need (Acts 4:35). In this way the abbot will take into account the weaknesses of the needy, not the evil will of the envious...RB80.55.20-21

Growing up in a family that did not always have lots of extras, I remember waiting for Friday payday when our family would go grocery shopping and possibly get our weekly supply of treats-- either candy or chips or soda (whatever it might be). I trying to make sure that I made at least as many trips to the fridge for snacks as everyone else did so that I would not miss out and have to wait until the following Friday. I wanted a system that provided equality for all. I was always quick to notice when someone else might be getting more than I thought I deserved.

In this chapter on the needs of the individuals, Benedict is quick to acknowledge that there can be occasion for potential rivalry. This tendency is possible whether in a family, a team, an office or a community. Basically, in any situation where more than two persons are working together, the temptation for comparisons can exist.

Benedict refers back to a passage from the Acts of the Apostles which tried to curtail this tendency. This reference describes the original community as one where everyone could feel assured that their needs would be addressed and no one would have to suffer excessive lack. This model sounds great but is very difficult to live.

In my present life, I try to assess within myself whether a request I make might be coming from a real need or just a whim or a desire to have exactly what everyone else has (whether I need it or not). Navigating the fine distinction between needs and wants can be tricky--but can be done if I remain self-aware and pay attention to where my desires and motivations are coming from. Is this something that will encourage my growth or just something that happens to catch my eye because it is new and exciting?

How am I living my life today aware of my needs and motivations?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Benefitting Others with Humility

2011-07-27T10:47:00.002-05:00

No one should presume to read or sing unless he is able to benefit the hearers; let this be done with humility, seriousness and reverence, and at the abbot's bidding. RB80.47.3-4

In community, as in families, many of the tasks are parcelled out among the different members. In addressing community prayer, Benedict advices that those who perform special tasks within the liturgy need to be those who have special skill and training.

The reader, for example, is not to be just anyone who happens to walk up and pick up the book randomly. The cantor or prayer leader should be someone who can lead the community in prayer without drawing undue attention to himself. The service needs to lead the person back to God and to praise.

This issue can be troublesome at times if I happen to consider myself extremely talented in whatever service I am performing. For example, if I know that I am a trained musician and use the opportunity to be the cantor to draw admiration for my great voice, I am taking away from the service I am providing. It might even be considered a distraction for others who are present intending to pray.

There can be a very fine line between being willing to share my skills for the glory of God and calling the praise to myself. I need to remind myself often what the real purpose of my service is.

How am I serving God today through the full use of my talents?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Cultivating Silence

2011-07-21T15:22:00.003-05:00

Monks should diligently cultivate silence at all time, but especially at night. RB80.42.1

Silence is an important monastic value. The ability to be maintain stillness and quiet within life is a skill that eludes many of us in today's culture that is often desired. There is always an abundance of sensory stimulus that hinders us from being able to maintain any semblance of inner quiet--iPods, cell phones, pagers, im, facebook, etc.

How can I best establish an inner peace within myself?

Establish a tech free zone in my day. Resist the temptation to go to sleep and awaken with facebook.

Find random moments within my day to just breath and call on God's name to remind me of God's Presence within my life.

Start my day with a recommitment to doing God's will.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

My Gift

2011-07-19T09:18:00.002-05:00

Everyone has his own gift from God, one this and another that (1 Cor 7:7). RB80.40.1

In addressing the proper amount of drink within the monastery, Benedict refers to this passage from the letter to the Corinthians which focuses on the gift which is present within each person. It is a passage that does not just speak of individual giftedness but also points to the grace which is present in each life.

In a broader context, it reminds me that it is the grace of God, God's special gift to me, that allows me to have the strength which is necessary not only to face the struggles of the day but also to be a sign of God's love to all I meet.

Weighed Down Hearts

2011-07-18T14:07:00.002-05:00

Our Lord says: Take care that your hearts are not weighed down with overindulgence (Luke 21:34). RB80.39.9

Today's passage is talking about food and eating. Basically, Benedict is advocating avoiding overindulgence or obsession about food within the monastery and in life.

Although I am definitely a person who loves food. I get pleasure from eating. I enjoying playing with food (one of the reasons I like baking yeast bread from scratch); I like planning meals. I am definitely about food, I do try not to obsess about it too much.

But if my heart is not weighed down with thoughts of food, what are the things that can distract me from single-hearted focus on God? Afterall, one of the hallmarks of monastic life is seeking God in all things.

I can be destracted by my own plans and vision of life. I can be an extreme planner and totally miss the message that God is imparting today by focussing only on MY plans.

I can easily be sidetracked by fear. I am not a fan of pain so will often take what looks like the more agreeable plan in order to avoid discomfort.

I am a dreamer so I can easily get stuck in how things should be and miss the beauty of God's plan.

I can sometimes be attracted to the glamour of being in control. Control can often seduce me into focusing on myself and my image rather than on reality and God's plans.

This are all things that can weigh my heart down and distract me from my true goal of seeking God in all things and listening to God's word.

What am I doing today to avoid being weighed down by illusions?

Prayer: The Better Remedy

2011-07-05T09:56:00.002-05:00

After he has applied compresses, the ointment of encouragement, the medice of divine Scripture, and finally the cauterizing iron of excommunication and strokes of the rod, and if he then perceives that his earnest efforts are unavailing, let him apply an even better remedy: he and all of the brothers should pray for him so that the Lord, who can do all things, may bring about the health of the sick brother. RB80.28.4-6

This selection comes towards the end of the section of the Rule that is considered a penal code of sorts. It comes after the various types of faults committed and the advised consequence have been addressed. It comes also after the section on excommunication (exclusion) for the group for significant problems.

It seems somewhat curious to me that Benedict reserves the use of prayer as a last resort remedy to whatever issue is at hand. It's as if to say once all that is humanly possible has been tried then turn to God for the answer. Maybe the point that Benedict is trying to make is that prayer needs to be accompanied by action. Sometimes, there can be the temptation to think that because I have prayed about an issue my responsibility has been fulfilled...now it's up to God to deal with it since I have prayed. Actually, it might need to be more like a partnership where I do pray and let God work on the outcome but also participate by taking concrete action also on whatever the issue may be.

There have been times in my life when I have been the person in need of prayer, healing and direction. There have also been times when I am on the side of accompanying those who might need the guidance. In both instances, I need to remember that I am in partnership with God and with my community on my life journey.

How am I remembering God's presence in my life today?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Reverence At Prayer

2011-06-27T10:49:00.002-05:00

We must know that God regards our purity of heart and tears of compunction, not our many words. RB80.20.3

Purity of heart....that has been my major life desire since youth. For me, purity of heart is a combination of authenticity, sincerity, integrity and radical honesty. Those are all virtues that I strive for in my life and that I value in my relationships with others. But, how can I live fully engaged with life in this way fully? That has been my eternal question.

The second part of this verse--shedding tears of compunction in prayer seems to be the key to this query. Tears have always been a part of my life but they have never really been my friends. I do not enjoy showing that extremely vulnerable part of myself that is moved to tears by compassion, love, sadness, anger and even joy. I would really much rather spend my life being invulnerable and self-sufficient.

Today's reading invites me to put aside my veneer of composure and risk being human--fully human in the face of God and others. Life does not call me to be involunerable.

How am I living in truth with God today?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Single-Heartedness

2011-06-23T11:02:00.003-05:00

Teach me, Lord, your way that I may walk in your truth, single-hearted and revering your name. Ps. 86.11

One of my life-long prayers has been for a steadfast heart that is focused on God. Granted, this is definitely an ideal that is not likely to be reached during my lifetime yet I continue to pray daily for the grace of that purity of heart.

This single-hearted path is not one that comes casually, as in I wake up one morning and find myself suddenly transformed into a true model of faith. It is my life's task here within this community of monastic women. Ultimately, we all share the same journey and desire but it is also the work of the individual.

So...how do I achieve this in my life?

One thing I do is plan time at the beginning and end of my day to review my choices and actions of the day. I thank God for the good and seek God's grace to do better in the future. In a sense, I try to reaffirm my desire for fullness and holiness daily.

How can I be more aligned with God's will today?

Please join our monastic community in prayer as we celebrate the Jubilees of Monastic Profession of Sister Mary Cabrini Boland (70 years), Sister Mary Michael Schwarz (70 years), Sister Christine Ereiser, Prioress St. Joseph Monastery (25 years), and Sister Catherine Martinez (25 years)).

Sr. Catherine, OSB

God Come to my Assistance

2011-06-21T14:08:00.002-05:00

Our community prayers begin daily with the following verse: O God, come to my assistance. O Lord, make haste to help me. Everytime we gather as a group to pray we call on God's grace and mercy to be with us at that time.

This refrain doesn't just carry me through that prayer period, it helps me to remember at random times throughout the day that God is always present and ready to help. I just need to remember to call. That simple reminder, which really does nothing to change who God is, gives me the confidence I need to move forward in the day.

Being a person who thrives on being self-sufficient, I often forget to ask for help. This little verse reminds me daily who my real source of power is.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

An Attitude of Praise

2011-06-20T11:02:00.002-05:00

The Prophet says: Seven times a day have I praised you (Ps 118[119]:164). RB80.16.1

Verse 1 of this chapter invites us to praise God seven times daily. If taken literally that would mean praying every three hours or so throughout the day. This invitation to prayer can also be seen as Benedict's reminder that the life of the faithful person needs to be rooted in a relationship with God. It is that constant connection which provides the graces and strength needed to face whatever the day might bring.

The early Christian community was familiar with this concept and developed ways to maintain that centeredness on God throughout the day. From this came the invocation of the name of Jesus which reminds us both of the power of the Name of God and keeps us connected in prayer in a very simple yet effective way.

I know that if I can start my day remembering God and my many blessings and continue to call on him during the empty spaces in my day, I am much more focused, present, and aware of the world around me. I find myself being more closely connected with life and more awake to the subtleties that I often miss. This awareness and connection is what I desire daily for myself.

How can I be more aware of God's presence in my life today?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Rising for the Glory Be

2011-06-14T09:05:00.002-05:00

We are preparing to celebrate the great feast in honor of the Holy Trinity. On this feast we acknowledge the great mystery that God is Three--yet--One. Although there is only One God (One Person) there are three distinct roles within the One. In a sense, God is the first model of community available to us.

During the Liturgy of the Hours (Divine Office), we traditionally stand and bow during the Doxology (Glory Be) at the conclusion of the psalms and the Benedictus and Magnificat (Gospel Canticles during prayer). We bow out of reverence to our Triune God and in acknowledgement of the wonder of the great mystery before which we stand and live.

There are countless times during my day when I stand before the presence of God in my ordinary encounters. If I truly believe that God exists within the heart of each person I meet and within each moment of my life, my day could be a perpetual bow to the presence of God in everything. Since this is not physically possible or practical, I need to work on cultivating an interior attitude which speaks of this reality. It needs to be an intention effort on my part. If I choose to live this reality, I might find myself more compassionate, accepting and a whole lot less stressed.

What small things can I do today to engender that attitude within my soul?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Living the Scriptures

2011-06-13T09:28:00.002-05:00

The readings from the Rule at this point address community prayer--how the prayer is to be structured, what psalms are recited at each hour, all the practical aspects of praying as a group.

One of the things that strikes me from our passage from Chapter 10 of the Rule (today's selection) is the mention of the reading from Scripture being recited by heart. I happen to have a good memory and find memorizing selections from literature fairly easy. In order for me to be able to memorize and recite a piece fluidly, I need to make the passage part of who I am. I need to develop a relationship with it and incorporate it into my daily life.

That is what ideally should happen to my from praying the psalms daily and from my personal lectio. After engaging with Scripture daily over a period of time, whether 5 years, 50, 70 or a lifetime, ideally my own life would be a version of the Scripture....a vibrant retelling of God's message of love to the world.

I need to ask myself regularly: is the Gospel message that I am living authentic and life-giving? Is it the message that will attract others to follow Christ and to consider living our monastic way of life?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Being Blown by the Wind

2011-06-07T09:14:00.004-05:00

...A talkative man goes about aimlessly on earth (Ps 139[140].12). RB80.7.58

I love to chatter...I could call it talking but truthfully it is mostly chattering; just something to do to keep myself entertained.

There are some benefits to this skill. For example, I am a great storyteller, which comes in handy when entertaining a group. I also feel comfortable speaking extemporaneously--I think quite well on my feet and can keep things going without too many awkward pauses. I come by this skill naturally and grew up in a home which was rarely without some sort of banter or communication.

There are instances where this skill can be a hindrance rather than an asset.

One aspect of life which can be difficult is that sometimes I am not taken very seriously. I can spend so much time focused on just "talking" that at times I can come off looking pretty shallow and superficial.

I have had to work a little harder than most to develop an authentic appreciation for silence, quiet and stillness. I have always longed for silence and been intrigued by it have had to consciously learn how to still myself enough to just be.

As I mature, I have also come to realize that silence and stillness are essential for my own spiritual growth. This stillness helps me to focus and to strengthen my relationships with God and with others.

I long for a time when I will not feel so much feel as a leaf being blown by a restless wind but more like a rooted plant that is able to sway with the gentle breeze of God's love.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

No Need To Be a Superstar

2011-06-06T09:24:00.003-05:00

The eighth step of humility is that a monk does only what is endorsed by the common rule of the monastery and the example set by this superiors. RB80.7.55

I have a tendency to want to be the center of the universe always. This fact is blatantly obvious to most who have known me for very long.

The eighth step of humility, though, encourages me to consider the benefits which are available to those who are willing to be one of the group. I am challenged to be open to the fact that the group's wellbeing as well as the community wisdom might be more in tune with God's will for me. I do not have the answer to all issues. And as bright as I might be I am not always a fountain of wisdom and truth.

Sometimes that is hard for me to understand and accept. Afterall, I love doing things my way so why shouldn't I invite others to do things my way also? I need to remember that part of being a good community member is faithfulness to the common practices and support for the common good. Ultimately, what is good for the group will be good for me also. I just need to remember that.

Today's question for me is: What am I doing to build up community spirit and bonds?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Let the Truth Come to Light

2011-06-03T09:39:00.002-05:00

The fifth step of humility is that a man does not conceal from his abbot any sinful thoughts entering his heart, or any wrongs committed in secret, but rather confesses them humbly. RB80.7.44

There is a blessing in being a person who is so extroverted that there are few thoughts that cross my mind, actions committed or opinions held that my whole known world does not know about in it's entirety. The expression TMI (too much information:)) seems to have be formulated with me in mind.

While it can be a curse at times--as in I often find myself saying more than I should multiple times a day, it is also a great blessing and source of growth for me if used properly. It is a way for me to be able to hold myself accountable for my growth and to take responsibility for my missteps. Since I am a person that thrives on being super successful (if not perfect), I often find myself reflecting on my past actions and thoughts and striving always to improve and continue on the road that leads to God.

Since I am also a very social being, I try as much as possible to curb my attitudes and behaviors and make them at least be as consistent as possible with my own belief system and my values. It helps that I have tons of energy and do not believe in half measures of anything.

A question that I ask myself often is: Would I be embarrassed if others knew this about me? It helps keep me honest and sincere in life.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Overcoming Through Love

2011-06-02T14:07:00.003-05:00

They are so confident in their expectation of reward from God that they continue joyfully and say, 'But in all this we overcome because of him who so greatly loved us' (Rom. 8:37). RB80.7.39

In addressing the fourth step of humility (obedience under difficult, unfavorable, or even unjust conditions), Benedict brings out the idea that it is the love of God which permits us to face adversity and overcome hardships that come in life.

Love is the key to many of life's more difficult moments, God's love for us which brought us to life initially, the assurance of God's sacrificial love, which is present in Christ's victory on the cross, and God's loving care which carries us through life.

My response of love to God is also present at times of transition when I choose to open myself in love to God's gift of grace rather than continue along my own path which might appear more comfortable but is not necessarily the most life-giving option for me.

The love and support of my personal support system is another factor which helps to make my life more enjoyable. God created me to be able to live the fullness of life and happiness.

How am I contributing to the peace and joy of others today?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Willing Obedience

2011-05-24T11:32:00.002-05:00

Furthermore, the disciples' obedience must be given gladly, for God loves a cheerful giver (2Cor 9.7). RB80.5.16

Today's reading takes obedience a step further than yesterday. While yesterday, I was invited to obey quickly and with eagerness, today the challenge is to obey cheerfully.

While there are some who are able to at least pretend to follow instructions willingly, I am definitely a person who lets others know if I do not agree with what is being required. For me this is usually evident in my non-stop complaining or in the half-hearted attitude in which I do things I would rather not do. (And I rarely do anything half-heartedly.) It can also be apparent in more subtle ways such as by finding a dozen other little things that need to be done that take me away from the task or by quietly suggesting to others that the required task is not all that important after all--there have to be better things to be doing right now.

When I give in to my tendency to deviate from the norm I find that I am not only hurting myself by wasting lots of time feeling miserable but I am also quietly tearing down community by inviting others to participate in my misery. When I stop and realize this I can usually find my way back to the group with God's help. I do need to be aware of that tendency, though, so that I not be hurting myself and dividing community in the process.

One question that I ask myself regularly is: What am I doing today to build community?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Unhesitating Obedience

2011-05-23T09:00:00.003-05:00

The first step of humility is unhesitating obedience, which comes naturally to those who cherish Christ above all. RB80.5.1-2

The three vows which all monastics make at the time of profession are stability, conversion to the monastic way of life and obedience. Of the three, obedience has probably the one that has helped me grow the most in self-awareness over the years. Obedience is also the only one of the vows to which Benedict devotes an entire chapter.

At first glance, obedience does not seem to hold much appeal. In my early understanding, it was pretty simple--I was told to do something and I would (or should) do it without thought or question. That was definitely not an appealing concept, especially since I had grown up questioning anything and everything in sight. My obedience was more of a dialogue based obedience, if any.

In reading Chapter 5 of the Rule I was intrigued by the sense of immediacy that seemed to be attached to the virtue of obedience. Words like "unhesitating," "as soon as," "immediately," and "leaving the task unfinished" jumped out of the text at me and made me stop and consider what would cause such a spontaneous response.

In reading the first two verses of Chapter 5 I found my response this action comes "naturally to those who cherish Christ above all." Is this what I want for myself in life? Do I truly long to have Christ be the center and goal of my life? If so, then I need to open myself up to opportunities of self-sacrificing obedience daily to prepare myself to meet my goal.

What am I doing today to show unhesitating obedience today?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

The Wisdom of the Young

2011-05-17T10:00:00.002-05:00

The reason why we have said that all should be called for counsel is that the Lord often reveals what is better to the younger. RB80.3.3

In former days, it was often believed that the younger should be seen and not heard. The role of the young was to pay attention and learn from those with more life experience. That principle still contains valuable insight but there is a need to modify the concept also.

The young are often characterized by their creativity, their energy and their fresh perspective on issues. They can often provide a unique way of dealing with complex situations. Benedict makes reference to two passages from the Gospels to bring forth this point.

The passages Matt. 11.25 and Luke 10.21 emphasize the fact that there are instances where God can give the grace of wisdom and insight even to the youngest among us. This can be a hopeful sign for groups since it emphasizes that there is leadership potential which can be found in listening to the young.

How do I encourage the young to develop their leadership voice?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Revisiting the Shepherd

2011-05-16T09:04:00.003-05:00

In this way, while always fearful of the future examination of the shepherd about the sheep entrusted to him and careful about the state of others' accounts, he becomes concerned also about his own, and while helping others to amend by his warnings, he achieves the amendment of his own faults. RB80.2.39-40

Once again, Benedict reminds the leader that his role is to be that of the shepherd of the flock; always aiming to assure that all are brought back safely. This time Benedict also adds the well being of the superior. So not only is the Prioress/Abbot responsible for all those others in community but also himself. This provides yet another reason for the superior to remember to teach by example as well as by words.

All of us have the role of leadership to others in big or small ways. It can be as an elder to the young, as a mentor to those new at a job, as a parent, a teacher or a coach. These all require that we model for one another the appropriate behaviors that are expected.

How am I being a good example in life today?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Walking the Talk

2011-05-12T07:20:00.000-05:00

Again, if he teaches his disciples that something is not to be done, then neither must he do it, lest after preaching to others, he himself be found reprobate (1Cor 9:27)... RB80.2.13

It is said that actions speak louder than words. Today, Benedict reminds the Abbot/Prioress that there is a greater impact by living the preaching rather than simply preaching.

In 1 Corinthians, St. Paul uses the example of an athlete training for an important race. He speaks of the discipline that is required and the benefit to be earned. A person does not train seriously by telling others how things are to be done.

In the same way, a person does not learn to live according to the Gospel by wishing themselves into it. It takes hard work and trust in God's grace.

I need to ask myself regularly if I am training to live the Gospel better in my life each day.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Shepherding the Flock

2011-05-10T13:22:00.004-05:00

Still, if he has faithfully shepherded a restive and disobedient flock, always striving to cure their unhealthy ways, it will be otherwise: the shepherd will be acquitted at the Lord's judgment. Then, like the Prophet, he may say to the Lord: I have not hidden your justice in my heart; I have proclaimed your truth and your salvation (Ps 39[40]:11), but they spurned and rejected me (Isa 1:2; Ezek 20:27). RB80.2.8-9

Benedict uses a mixture of Scriptural quotes and allusions to bring out the burden that is placed on the leader of a group. Benedict likens the superior to a shepherd who is caring for his flock. The shepherd is to do what can be done to direct the flock along safe paths. If even with the best efforts the flock still insists on it's own ways--the shepherd is relieved of the responsibility. There are only so many warnings or teachings that can be imparted on the group. After a while, the group will have to be accountable for their own behavior.

Benedict alludes to a passage from the book of the Prophet Ezekiel where God explains to the Prophet what will happen to the people if they are instructed to turn from their own ways and follow God. The Prophet will only be responsible for the outcome if he failed in his mission; if, however, he relays God's message of repentance and the people ignore it they are held accountable for their own actions and the Prophet is acquitted.

The Abbot or Prioress carries a teaching role as part of their task. If the leader does everything possible to guide the group in the right way, the community will be saved. If they choose to ignore the instructions, they are responsible for the consequences.

In a community, we are all responsible for the groups salvation. What am I doing to help my community grow in holiness?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Who is Your Shepherd?

2011-05-10T08:06:00.002-05:00

Still loyal to the world by their actions, they clearly lie to God by their tonsure. Two or three together, or even alone, without a shepherd, they pen themselves up in their own sheepfolds, not the Lord's. RB80.2.7-8a

In listing the types of disciples found in the monastery, Benedict is dealing today with those who are pretending to be something they are not. Benedict uses the example of the monastic tonsure--which was a visible sign of monastic commitment. Those who try to live the life while still having one foot firmly planted in their former way of life. It is similar to trying to move forward while looking over one's shoulder at what was left behind. Although this type of motion might be possible for a short time, it gets tiresome, confusing and potentially dangerous after a while.

Benedict also makes an allusion to the story of the Good Shepherd who has built a relationship with his flock. In the Gospel of John, we are told that the shepherd and the sheep recognize one another. The sheep follow at the voice of the shepherd. Benedict gives us the example of those aforementioned people who have convinced themselves that they are follow God's will and directives while actually simply following what they like and find comfortable. This tendency can be destructive in community because it has the ability to set up separate factions within the whole.

Am I helping to build community or divide it by hanging on to my own will?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Kinds of Monks

2011-05-09T10:19:00.002-05:00

First, there are the cenobites, that is to say, those who belong to a monastery, where they serve under a rule and an abbot. (RB80.1.2)

In listing the qualities of the types of persons found in groups, Benedict starts by addressing first those who belong to the general group and who choose to follow a common rule.

Every group has a variety of personalities involved in it:

there are those who do only what is required and those who check to see how much they can stretch the boundaries,

there are those who thrive on being part of a team and those who prefer to work alone,

there are some who are born to lead and others who rebel against all authority.

All of these elements are necessary for a team to function well. There has to be boundaries that are set and obeyed (not necessarily liked by all) yet enough space for diversity. I need to realize that although I might want to be the center of the group at all times, there needs to be a measure of flexibility present that allows all to use their gifts and talents and to grow. I need to ask myself regularly if I am contributing something positive to the group or detracting from it.

What am I doing to enable the groups I belong to grow today?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Falling Down and Getting Up Again

2011-05-06T07:20:00.002-05:00

As the Apostle says: Do you not know that the patience of God is leading you to repent (Rom 2:4)? And indeed the Lord assures us in his love: I do not wish the death of the sinner, but that he turn back to me and live (Ezek 33:11). (RB80.Prologue.37-38)

I am very grateful that my personal salvation does not rely on myself and my own efforts. That reality is brought back to me day after day when I reflect on some of my personal choices and realize that taken by themselves (without God's mercy and grace) there are many times that I totally miss the mark.

It's not that I spend my days committing grave sins or harboring hatred and malice in my heart. It is much more a case of letting my own laziness or self-will get in the way of me being the person that I was created to be...my best self. There is definitely a measure of self-awareness that reminds me to turn back to God and the right road before I stray too far. That is a gift of God's grace to me. I resolve after each misstep to make a new start and to work at strengthening my commitment.

There is a story from the Desert Tradition (of Early Monasticism) that tells of a person asking an elder what the secret of life is. He explains that it is found in falling down and rising again as many times as it takes. The point is to continue getting up; no matter how difficult or discouraging it may seem. I can find some comfort in this saying since it implies that it is not perfection that is sought in life but a willingness to continue growing and moving along the path. I can do that much. I need to rely on God's grace and on the fellow travelers on the journey to help me get to the goal.

That is both heartening and humbling since I have to accept that fact that I cannot do this on my own strength. What am I doing today to help myself or others along the road of life?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

God's Grace in Action

2011-05-05T07:29:00.002-05:00

In just this way Paul the Apostle refused to take credit for the power of his preaching. He declared: "By God's grace I am what I am" (1 Cor 15:10). And again he said: "He who boasts should make his boast in the Lord" (2 Cor 10:17). RB80.Prologue.31-32

It is God's gracious gift of love and mercy that bring about the good and the successes of my life. Of my own efforts I am not able to accomplish anything that is directed toward the good and holy. At first glance this sounds a little harsh and somewhat self-deprecating, but it is true. It can also be a source of hope and encouragement for me in a sense.

If I am not responsible for making the "good" happen in my life, then I can focus more on just doing whatever needs to be done next. I can spend my extra energy on prayer, staying on the assigned course and being aware of God's presence in my life. It is truly through God's efforts that my successes can be recognized and I can participate in the improvement of the world.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Desiring Life

2011-05-04T09:24:00.002-05:00

Is there anyone here who yearns for life and desires to see good days? (Ps. 33(34):13) If you hear this and your answer is "I do," God then directs these words to you: If you desire true and eternal life, keep your tongue free from vicious talk and your lips from all deceit; turn away from evil and do good; let peace be your quest and aim (Ps 33(34):14-15) RB80.Prologue.15-17

I love life...I love experiencing new things, adventures, challenges. I am grateful for life and the opportunities each day brings. I have been like that since I was a child so that is probably inherent in my personality.

Today, Benedict asks with the psalmist--Is there anyone here who yearns for life and desires to see good days? My initial response is to stand and state "YES!!!" as emphatically as possible. I long for a long and productive life. I desire success, happiness and all the benefits of a good life.

I need to ask myself, however, what is required in order to achieve this life. What is the magic formula that will gain the type of life in union with God that I am searching?

Benedict tells me what to do next to achieve my goal. I am to keep my tongue from vicious talk and my lips from speaking deceit; turn away from evil and do good; let peace be your quest and aim. That is definitely a formula for living a righteous life. It is by no means easy to fulfill. It can only be achieved through prayer, God's grace and effort. If I desire to have a life of integrity and peace, I need to start by cultivating that peace and compassion within my own heart first.

What am I doing today to instill that righteousness and peace within my life?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Doing the Impossible

2011-04-26T15:03:00.003-05:00

Trusting in God's help, he must in love obey. RB80.68.5

Okay, so I am asked to do something I consider impossible. This request is not just something outside of my comfort zone but pretty much out of the realm of possibility. What am I to do???

I, personally, have never been known to step away from a challenge--no matter what form it might take. But then, I have never really been asked to do anything that I consider impossible or unbearable, just difficult at times.

When I first entered community, I had a well rehearsed list of things that I would never plan on doing...so don't even ask. This list included everything from never driving on less than ideal roads, to not ever choosing to eat unfamiliar foods, to not wanting to spend hours attached to an office. Needless to say, I have tried doing most of these things at one time or another. The secret was to be open enough to trust that those in leadership might possibly have a fuller vision of the truth than I might have at the time.

In chapter 68, Benedict encourages the person to accept "impossible" tasks quietly and at least try to do what was being asked. There is an opportunity to plead a case to be relieved of the burden but only after an honest attempt has been made to fulfil the request. If even after this the request still stands, the person is to accept the assignment quietly and rely on God's grace.

What I have found for myself is that when I am willing to suspend my own will even for a little while and try a new task...the impossible may actually turn out to be possible and I might even discover that I have new talents.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Example and Teaching

2011-04-20T08:44:00.002-05:00

Goodness of life and wisdom in teaching must be the criteria for choosing the one to be made abbot, even if he is the last in community rank. RB80.64.2

Goodness of life (virtue) and wisdom in teaching (example) are to be the criteria for choosing the leader.

The leader needs to be one who is familiar with the rules and guidelines and has shown understanding of them through the way life is lived. Ideally, the person in charge is someone who also is a good follower and a good team player. I need to know how to be part of the group before I can accept the responsibility of directing others. How am I living according to the prescribed guidelines of the group?

It is often said that actions speak much louder than words. Am I showing others through my own example how to live in harmony with others? Do my attitudes and actions betray some form of inner conflict with existing norms or with those in authority?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Experience Counts

2011-04-18T08:04:00.002-05:00

Therefore, apart from those mentioned above whom the abbot has for some overriding consideration promoted, or for a specific reason demoted, all the rest should keep to the order of their entry. For example, someone who came to the monastery at the second hour of the day must recognize that he is junior to someone who came at the first hour, regardless of age or distinction. RB80.63.7-8 Looking at this selection from the Rule my first reaction is to consider it somewhat picky. I mean, am I really going to be the junior of someone who happened to show up at the door just a few minutes before me??? That is something hard for me to understand at face value. I would much prefer a system where age, or likability, or personality, or something I can achieve carries power. Looking at the passage more closely, though, I realize the inherent wisdom here. It reminds me that status in community is not arbitrary. I do not get automatic status because I am the leader's buddy, or because I can buy myself into a powerful position. I can move up or down in rank only according to the virtue of my life. My living out of this life (how I live out Gospel values daily) is the only means through which I can rise or descend in status. The decision is mine. How do I choose to life my commitments today? Sr. Catherine, OSB

Perseverance in Trials

2011-04-11T09:01:00.002-05:00

Chapter 58 of the Rule of Benedict offers insight and guidance on the reception of new members into the community. It spells out the procedure for accepting the uninitiated into the group. At first glance, it seems a little extreme to keep a person knocking on the door for an extended length of time to test the sincerity of their intentions. Few would endure the "testing" of their purpose over a prolonged period of time. (At least, I am pretty sure that I would have rethought my intial decision more than once if I had received such a harsh welcome.) The novel, The Hawk and The Dove Trilogy, by Penelope Wilcock, offers a scene which in which the young person is left in the cold for various days before being re-accepted into the community (after a departure). In a sense, he was required to prove the firmness of his renewed intent. The testing that happens to the new is not meant to traumatize the person or to drive them away but rather to provide a reality check from the start about the nature of the commitment to be undertaken. One of our former formation directors used to tell her novices regularly that they had not signed up to join the Girl Scouts when they entered community. I think this is the basic message of today's passage. On entering a monastic community, the person is opening themselves us to be part of the joys and struggles that might come with this group. This is both the joy and the penance of community living. Sr. Catherine, OSB

Distribution According to Need

2011-04-08T08:23:00.002-05:00

The abbot, however, must always bear in mind what is said in the Acts of the Apostles: Distribution was made to each one as he had need (Acts 4:35). In this way the abbot will take into account the weaknesses of the needy, not the evil will of the envious; yet in all his judgments he must bear in mind God's retribution. RB80. 55.20-22 THINGS!!!!! I have a habit of acquiring more and more things even when I am not intending to. Sometimes it almost seems as if my possessions multiply spontaneously just by being in close proximity to one another. After a while it becomes a question of do I actually possess these things or do they possess me. It's not that I am greedy, a hoarder or never share my things; it's more like people offer me their hand me downs or show me an interesting new craft project and I slowly find myself in a sea of things again. So, how can I keep better track of this and simplify my life so that what I have readily available are the tools I truly need for my daily life?

Ask myself if the individual things I have are what I need or if there are others who could use some of these things better? Do I really need 3 sweaters that are not the right size anymore or can I give them to charity?

Are there things that I have that I might be able to share with others? If I only do 1 knitting project every two years do I really need a full set of special knitting needles and an assortment of the best yarns available--just because they were on sale?

What do I really need for me life to be complete? What can I do with less of?

These are just a few of the questions that I address regularly in my life as I look at my relationship with things.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Flexibility is the Key

2011-04-05T15:36:00.002-05:00

The kitchen for the abbot and guests ought to be separate, so that guests--and monasteries are never without them--need not disturb the brothers when they present themselves at unpredictable hours. RB80.53.16 Flexibility can be a blessing in life. The ability to adapt to different circumstances and to roll with whatever happens without undue stress and anxiety can be a rare gift. It is a skill that is necessary to practice hospitality. Growing up, my younger sister would call me "Gumby" after the plasticine, animated character that was able to be stretched and bent in a multitude of ways and would still return to it's original shape--no matter what shapes it had been formed into earlier. She was referring not just to my physical flexibility but my emotional flexibility which allowed me to be open to surprises and to challenges. The word impossible did not seem to exist in my dictionary and I could easily be energized by seemingly daunting tasks. Actually, the more challenging the situation the better I seemed to handle it. St. Benedict is asking me today to have the same attitude with guests and those I encounter daily. I am invited to open myself to the challenges and different opportunities which are offer daily. Sr. Catherine, OSB

Reception of Guests

2011-04-04T08:27:00.002-05:00

Great care and concern are to be shown in receiving poor people and pilgrims, because in them more particularly Christ is received; our very awe of the rich guarantees them special respect. RB80.53.15 The hospitality that Benedict is calling forth in community is an openning of myself, my life, my home, my comfort for the sake of the other...no matter how inconvenient or uncomfortable. He actually recommends that extra kindness and care be shown to those who are least likely to be the "desired" guest--the poor, the traveler, the elderly, the young, the sick. These guests require a little extra effort on my part because they come needier. Benedict makes reference to Matthew 25 in his instructions for the care of the guest since Christ is to be received in all who show up at our doors--no matter how hard it is to see Christ. There are some among us for whom this type of open welcome comes naturally. It is as if they were born with an innate ability to be welcoming and open to all and everyone who crosses their path. That is a true talent. My mom was like that...she was able to see beyond outward appearances and to treat everyone as a treasured friend. This skill is present even to this day in the number of people that my parents know from the neighborhood, church, and town that consider my parents among their special friends. I would like to believe that I learned that skill from my parents and am continuing to grow in that. When I am attentive to my surroundings, I am able to be open to all I meet. I find that most when I am traveling and fellow passengers strike up conversations with me along the way. I always feel richer for the experience of openning myself up to others. How can I be more open to Christ in my life today in others? Sr. Catherine, OSB

Living Intentionally

2011-04-01T08:12:00.002-05:00

Our monastic community is in the beginning stages of performing a self-study. It is an opportunity that we take every 6 years to look at our lives as they are lived, individually and communally, and to assess our strengths, weaknesses and areas for potential growth. Part of this process involves and extensive survey. At the end of our current survey we added a few essay questions about our life. One of the questions was Am I living my monastic life the way I intend to live it? Explain. Although I usually do not have a big problem with telling others what I think and feel, this question caused me to pause for a few minutes. I had to stop and evaluate whether I was making use of the opportunities and support offered to me in life. Am I really living life to its fullest extent for me and also for others? What are some things that need to change within me in order to maximize my life? How can I choose to be a more authentic image of God for others? Chapter 50 of the Rule today (Brothers Working At a Distance or Travelling) reminds me that there does not need to be a dichotomy in my life between who I am at home and who I am away from the group. I need to strive for that singleness of purpose that allows me to be who I am wherever I may find myself. This will be what attracts others to God and to our community. May I strive to be a more authentic image of God's love daily. Sr. Catherine, OSB

Mid-Lent Check Up

2011-03-31T07:37:00.002-05:00

Today's selection from the Rule of St. Benedict is Chapter 49: On the Observance of Lent. Today we are also at a midpoint in this year's lenten journey. It is a good time to reflect on my progress during this season and check to see where my resolve might be faltering just a bit. This year I chose to take a positive approach to Lent and my resolutions--adjusting my life to allow for more good than trying to actively suppress the vices. Although it has not been super easy I am happy to say that it has been manageable. I am still able to remember what my resolutions are and why I chose them initially. Although I have not fulfilled them perfectly, 100% 0f the time, I can definitely see where progress has been made and where my awareness has been heightened. I pray to continue on this road so that I can say on Easter that I have arrived at Easter with "joy and spiritual longing." What do I need to strengthen today? Where have I fallen in my resolutions that I need to start over again? Sr. Catherine, OSB

Ora et Labora/Prayer and Work

2011-03-29T07:49:00.002-05:00

Many are familiar with the Benedictine motto: Ora et Labora. It is no coincidence that the first word in this phrase is Ora--Pray. It reminds me that it is out of my prayer (both in community and private) that my work/ministry/service needs to flow. It is prayer that inspires and enlivens my good deeds and charitable actions. It is not an accident that in the chapter on daily, manual labor (Chapter 48) a large majority deals with the prayer aspects of life. What am I doing today to keep a balance of prayer and work in my life? Sr. Catherine, OSB

A Need for Structure

2011-03-28T07:55:00.003-05:00

Idleness is the enemy of the soul. Therefore, the brothers should have specified periods for manual labor as well as for prayerful reading. RB80.48.1 As much as I crave unstructured time everyday, time to just be, I know that too much lack of structure and responsibilities can be more a hindrance to my well being than a help. Since childhood, I have dreamed of having entire hours just to read, or sit and think and day dream, or write and be creative. The reality is, however, that when I have had those treasured opportunities I soon get bored and start looking for more interesting endeavors. A little free time goes a real long way with me and unfortunately too much time on my hands leads to ennui and often laziness. So, how do I strike a balance in life? Verse 1 from Chapter 48 gives the beginnings of an answer for me. Realizing that there needs to be a balance between free time and scheduled activity, including a small dose of free/fun time everyday (like 1 or 2 hours) might help me start finding the balance that I need. This free time can also be scheduled so that I do not totally forget to include my need for time to just be--which I sometimes can. I need to remember to include times for exercise, rest, reading, personal prayer, and personal care. This is not to say that I can do this perfectly since I am still a work in progress. I strive each day to be a little better than the last. What am I doing today to achieve a balance in my life? Sr. Catherine, OSB

My Carelessness

2011-03-25T08:43:00.003-05:00

...for failing to correct by humility the wrong committed through negligence. RB80.45.2

If I am not awake and present to the task at hand, it is often easy for me to be distracted and careless in the way I carry out my tasks. I can often convince myself that being not fully present and attentive is not really hurting anyone (well maybe myself but not in a significant way). After all if my mind is quick enough to multitask, what is wrong with using that 90 second pause between the reading and the response at community prayers to plan tonight's menu for dinner, rehearse the difficult phone call I need to make or mental pack for my next trip? Isn't that just a way of being more efficient and effective with my time?

What I have found out for myself is that I spend a lot of time trying to catch up when I try to mentally "multitask" when it comes to prayers, relationships and conversations with others. I am much for likely to be less engaged, careless and often miss vital information when I am overly distracted internally. For me, it is a subtle way of asserting that my needs and my concerns at this time are more important that those of the group, of the other person or of God. In a sense, I have better things to do and right now my body is just fulfilling a duty.

Is that what I am really trying to convey to others? Is that really helping me and others be the best they can be? How am I showing my respect for others today?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Satisfaction for Faults

2011-03-24T07:29:00.002-05:00

The word satisfaction and its use in Chapter 44 of the Rule of Benedict caught my attention today. I am familiar with the word meaning something similar to complete or full yet I had never really stopped and considered it in the context of reparation and amendment. Dictionary.com (an online English dictionary) has the following as two of the definitions for satisfaction: an act of doing penance or making reparation for venial sin; the penance or reparation made. This is an older, ecclesial meaning for satisfaction.

This reparation may be similar to the act of bringing things back into order or to a state of completeness. When a fault is committed or there is a disturbance the harmony and balance of things is thrown off. It is through the act of penance and humble admission of wrong doing that everything can be restored to its original harmony. Everything can return to a state similar to the original. That is the main point of Chapter 44--setting everything back in place.

What am I doing to maintain the balance in community?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Tardiness in Community

2011-03-22T07:49:00.002-05:00

Today's selection comes from Chapter 43 in the Holy Rule, "Tardiness at the Work of God or at Table."

From the beginning of the chapter, Benedict emphasizes the importance of being on time to two of the major community events every day--prayers and meals. In any group, there is an amount of order and structure that needs to be in place just so there can be smooth functioning.

Benedict recommends that those who are late for either prayers or meals be required to amend for their fault before being allowed to be part of the general group again. Benedict does not seem overly anxious to exclude others randomly or at will. He makes a provision for the beginning verses of the common prayer to be very slow and deliberate giving everyone ample opportunity to be on time.

It seems as though Benedict is not so much addressing the lateness as the attitude in the person that would allow them to take lightly causing distraction or inconvenience to the whole. It is more about the internal motivations than the actual actions.

How do my motivations and attitudes affect the structure of our community life (whether it be in an office, a classroom, a team or a family)?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Providing Choices

2011-03-18T09:44:00.002-05:00

It is often easier to get folks to agree to things if they are given some choice and voice in the matter. Today, Benedict talks to us about the food to be provided at meals. He recommends that two cooked options be available at meals so that those who may not choose one entree would still have another option available. Once again St. Benedict's wisdom and familiarity with human nature is shown since he realized that not everything in a person's life needs to be legislated and that in some cases some choice even a small one might be beneficial.

I can really appreciate this thinking in a very practical way in my life. Growing up I was an extremely picky eater. The list of non-edible foods was much longer than the list of acceptable ones. I never went hungry for long so I must have found some things that I liked. As I grew and began having more of a social life, my parents helped me to realize that while pickiness might be mildly accepted at home it was totally unacceptable in other's homes and in public. I could choose to widen my eating experience and have plenty of opportunities to grow or I could remain how I was and have many less options. It did not take me long to acquire a taste so some things that I would never have thought I could stomach.

The same applies for me in many other instances. How can I offer others choices so that they may grow to their potential?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Benefitting the Community

2011-03-17T09:25:00.002-05:00

Brothers will read and sing, not according to rank, but according to their ability to benefit their hearers. RB80.38.12

Not everyone who is literate or who can carry a tune is designated to be a lector or cantor in community.

In a religious community, readers and singers are essential at prayer times, at meal times and other times throughout the day. Benedict warns though that those chosen to read, sing or lead prayers need to show skill in fulfilling their role rather than let it be an honorary role. There needs to be adequate training and preparation before fulfilling these important tasks--not just the person who happens to stumble in and pick up the book.

This precept holds true even when I am a participant in prayers, rather than taking on a special role. I need to be prepared (with my books marked) and fully present during our prayer times. I need to be aware of those around me and be sensitive to their needs so that I do not disrupt others through excessive movement, random whispers or other minor distractions.

What am I doing today to be fully present to community today in our common prayer?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

The More Vulnerable

2011-03-16T09:40:00.003-05:00

Since their lack of strength must always be taken into account, they should certainly not be required to follow the strictness of the rule with regard to food, but should be treated with kindly consideration and allowed to eat before the regular hours. RB80.37.2-3

Chapters 36 and 37 of the Rule of Benedict deal with the sick (chapter 36) and the elderly and the young (chapter 37). These two chapters deal with those who are especially vulnerable and defenceless and can easily be forgotten. Benedict requires that special care be given to those who have special needs but might not be able to advocate for themselves. He relates our treatment of those with special concerns with the Gospel scene from Matthew 25.34-40.

What are some practical ways through which I can be compassionate and aware of the needs of all in the group--whether family, team, office or community?

Remembering to treat all as individuals. Taking the time to be aware of the special issues which might be troublesome and relevant for each person. What are the stumbling blocks to avoid?
Use the same compassion towards others that I would like to receive myself. Taking the Golden Rule a step further.
Not set my expectations or standards unreasonably high. I usually have more issues when I set my personal expectations at a level higher than humanly possible (either for myself or others).
Take time to slow down before reacting. Problems arise when I expect everyone to have the some values or beliefs that I have.

God calls me daily to be open and compassionate towards those I encounter daily because it is through relationships that I grow in holiness and self-awareness.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Being a Good Patient

2011-03-15T10:06:00.003-05:00

Let the sick on their part bear in mind that they are served out of honor for God, and let them not by their excessive demands distress their brothers who serve them. RB80.36.4

I am fortunate to have been blessed with very good health. My health is a blessing to me and also to those who live with me because I am not sure how good a patient I would be if I was ever really ill.

First, I am not a fan of pain in any form. As soon as I feel a headache, a toothache or itch coming on, I know that whining and complaining is probably not far behind. I can stand pain or discomfort about 30 seconds, then it's time to look for a way out.

Second, patience is not a hallmark of my personality. I am definitely a person who wants everything right now--as soon as I think of it. Unfortunately, relief from pain is usually not quite so automatic. I can not will my pain away, although I might be tempted to try.

Third, I am not one to suffer quietly, if something is wrong, I really believe that everyone around needs to know about it and share my misery.

That being said, how does today's reading about Care for the Sick help me to grow in this aspect of my life?

Benedict reminds the one who is ill that the care and respect offered are out of love of Christ. The person in need is to be humble in all their needs not demanding and overbearing. The sick are to remember that for that particular instance they are taking the place of the weak Christ in the community.

When I can recall these things, I am less likely to be demanding, impatient, and disagreeable and to be humble in my requests.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Free Disposal of Body and Will

2011-03-11T09:48:00.002-06:00

We mean that without an order from the abbot, no one may presume to give, receive or retain anything as his own, nothing at all--not a book, writing tablets or stylus--in short, not a single item, especially since monks may not have the free disposal even of their own bodies and wills. RB80.33.2-4

I am reminded once again that life on earth is transitory and that all those things which I am tempted to consider my own and essential to my life are only temporary loans. That is hard for me to accept, especially since I grew up in a family that taught me that I could be the master of my own destiny and that control was ultimate power.

So, what can I do with this new reality? I can I live peacefully knowing that I am basically dependent on God and others for my daily life?

I can practice trust everyday. Trust in God and trust in those whom God has placed over me on this journey. I do not need to know everything or be in full control all the time.
I can write down my fears and anxieties and present them to God daily (or hourly, if necessary).
I can take time at the beginning and the end of the day to just "be". It can be as little as five minutes to just sit and do nothing but be.

These are just some of the ways in which I can practice my trust and my awareness of my dependence on God and God's mercy today.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Care of the Goods

2011-03-10T13:45:00.003-06:00

The goods of the monastery, that is, its tools, clothing or anything else, should be entrusted to brothers whom the abbot appoints and in whose manner of life he has confidence. RB80.32.1

Benedict wants to assure that the material possessions of the community are in good care. Benedict, once again, states that the character of the monastic should be taken into account in the distribution of tools and goods. The character and behavior of the person has been important in the assignment of responsibilities and authority, in relationships within the monastery, and now with how the monastery goods are handled. What is it about these three things that would have them take on such importance? After all, aren't the goods just things???

I think that Benedict might be reminding the person that all is gift from God--our possessions, our relationships, and all of creation. These are all loans to us from God and need to be handled wisely with humility and care.

How can I increase my awareness of this amazing gift from God? I desire to grow daily in this aspect during Lent.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Proper Timing

2011-03-09T07:33:00.002-06:00

Necessary items are to be requested and given at the proper times, so that no one may be disquieted or distressed in the house of God. RB80.31.18-19

Timing is everything. The timing of a legitimate request and the filling of the request can make a person's day more stressful, more anxiety producing or more calm and peaceful. If I am not sure exactly when my need will be filled after I have politely asked, I can become more worried or hypervigilant. That is unnecessary stress for everyone involved--for me, for the person filling the request and for those around me.

As the person filling the request of another, Benedict continually reminds me that I should not use whatever power I may have at the time to stress others out, to see how much they can beg before I fulfill their request. That would not be in the realm of proper use of authority in any group, it would be more like tyranny. Benedict reminds the person designated to fill the material needs of the community to be humble and gentle in filling needs even when the answer must be "No" to someone.

How do I respond when others ask me for something?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Like a Parent to the Whole Community

2011-03-08T15:25:00.002-06:00

As cellarer of the monastery, there should be chosen from the community someone who is wise, mature in conduct, temporate, not an excessive eater, not proud, excitable, offensive, dilatory or wasteful, but God-fearing, and like a father to the whole community. RB80.31.1-2

He is believed to hole the place of Christ in the monastery, since he is addressed by a title of Christ, as the Apostle indicates: You have received the spirit of adoption of sons by which we exclaim, abba, father (Rom 8.15). RB80.2.2-3

Benedict stipulates that both the superior and the cellarer (the person in charge of stocking the storeroom) are to act as a parent to the community. This is not to suggest that the leader and the house manager are to treat the rest as small children or infants but rather to assert that those who are given a place of leadership should be concerned for the welfare of the group and the individuals as a parent would. They are to remember that they are called to "servant leadership".

Whenever I am given a place of authority, I need to keep in mind that I am asked to be a leader not a tyrant or a dictator. I am to take Christ as my model for leadership. He was a leader who literally laid down his life for his followers. Am I willing to do the same even in a small degree?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Don't Overkill

2011-02-28T08:00:00.002-06:00

There ought to be due proportion between the seriousness of a fault and the measure of excommunication or discipline. RB80.24.1

This short verse from the Rule seems to be pretty clear: make sure that the consequence is in proportion to the action. The reasoning behind it makes sense and seems fair--big penalties should not be associated with minor infractions. Both the severity of the action and the particular situation of the person(s) involved should be considered.

This theory holds true in any kind of group whether a family, a team, a classroom or an office. I am reminded of an incident that happened at home with my siblings. My younger sister did not have a whole lot of emotional control as far as I could see. (I had somehow forgotten that I was more than 15 years older than her, so hopefully I had a little more control than she did.) One day she was upset about something and threw a hairbrush at me. She was about two at the time. I was not going to let this offense go by lightly so I flung the brush back at her. She had totally missed me but I had better aim. I hit her on the head. My mom happened to be coming into the room about the time the brush hit my sister. Needless to say, I got in trouble for not using my best judgement in responding to my sister. I had forgotten about the difference in age and strength between us.

I remember that incident when I am in a situation where I need to evaluate how to respond to an action. Do I really need to respond in like manner? Is my proposed consequence disproportionate to the original offense? How would I like others to respond to me in that situation? How forgiving would I like God to be with me?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

In the Presence of God and His Angels

2011-02-25T08:51:00.002-06:00

Let us consider, then, how we ought to behave in the presence of God and his angels, and let us stand to sing the psalms in such a way that our minds are in harmony with our voices. RB80.19.6-7

I have a very short attention span and often find my mind drifting in multiple directions if I don't consciously make myself focus and be fully present. After saying this, today's passage from the Rule is more than a little challenging for me at times.

I have been in our community around 25 years. That means that for 25 years I have been participating in our community prayers daily. I can even recite many of the psalms, practically in my sleep. That is where the challenge lies for me...It is possible for me to be physically present at our prayers, and even be mouthing the correct words and not be totally present! My mind could easily be on my last activity or my next activity if I am not watchful.

My basic underlying desire, though, invites me to be awake, alert and fully present at our times of prayer. So knowing my own tendencies, how can I ensure that I am as fully engaged as possible at all times?

I can arrive a few minutes early for prayers and prepare myself in stillness and silence to be fully present.
I can make sure that I reduce my distractions by refraining from stopping along the way to the oratory.
I can bring myself gently back to the present moment when I find myself daydreaming.
I can thank God for the grace to even have this desire for heightened awareness.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Moderation in the Rule

2011-02-24T09:28:00.002-06:00

Above all else we urge that if anyone finds this distribution of the psalms unsatisfactory, he should arrange whatever he judges better, provided that the full compliment of one hundred and fifty psalms is by all means carefully maintained every week, and that the series begins anew each Sunday at Vigils. RB80.18.22-23

After setting up guidelines for a proposed order of prayer, Benedict reminds the group that these are only guidelines not steadfast rules. He seems to realize that there may be circumstances within groups that would call for modifications, and that is actually okay. This is part of the genius that has allowed this form of living to still be viable after more than 1500 years.

There needs to be a certain amount of flexibility in life that allows for adjustments to be made for situations that might arise. Without this ability to adjust as necessary, structures can become rigid with little or no opportunity to modify. Although there is a need for structure in life a certain amount of fluidity is also needed. This ability to adapt helps us to find a balance in everyday life.

What am I doing to help find a healthy balance in my life today?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Vespers--Prayers at Twilight

2011-02-23T13:07:00.002-06:00

Prayers at dawn and at twilight (Lauds/morning prayer and Vespers/evening prayer) are the bookends to our day. Just as I learned to pray on awakening and before sleep daily these two specific prayer times at the beginning and the end of the day set the tone for my daily life. Those days when I miss a prayer time or rush through prayers just to fill a requirement definitely have a different feel to them.

So...what is distinctive about these times of prayer and why are they so important? For me, morning prayer sets the tone for the day. It's starting my day of right by having a conversation with God. This is also an opportunity to thank God for protecting me throughout the night and giving me another opportunity to grow. I can offer the upcoming day to God so that I can remember concretely that the day is God's gift to me. Vespers is the time when I can thank God for the blessings the day has brought and ask God for the grace to improve tomorrow. It offers me the opportunity to review the day and put it away in God's presence.

How can this practice be incorporated into daily living? One way to start is praying a psalm together as a family before bedtime and concluding with an Our Father. Another idea is to add another psalm on weekend mornings (when life is a little less hectic).

Sr. Catherine, OSB

O God Come to My Assistance

2011-02-21T08:01:00.002-06:00

Each of the community prayer times is to begin with the following invocation: O God, come to my assistance. O Lord make haste to help me. With this constant reminder throughout the day of our need for God's grace and mercy, our day is filled with an awareness of who I am and who God is in the world. God is Creator, I am created.

Sometimes it is hard for me to remember that, especially if I am on a very successful stretch of time when most things seem to be going extremely well. I can have a tendency to take credit for the successes and accomplishments in my life and forget that actually they are all a very generous gift from God; since without God's grace I can do very little successfully.

This verse at the beginning of our community prayers recalls this fact for me. I am invited to remember throughout the day, whose I am and to whom I should be grateful.

May I always remember to praise God for his gifts to me.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Alleluia on Sundays

2011-02-18T10:14:00.002-06:00

Sundays in the weekly prayer order are set apart from the other days through the addition of "Alleluia" at the end of the psalms. The only exception is the Lenten season when Alleluia is not used at all.

Why are Sundays set apart from the other days?

Sundays are considered the day to remember and celebrate the Resurrection of Jesus. In a sense, through our celebration of Sunday we celebrate again the Resurrection.
Sundays are set apart as a day of leisure and renewal. In the Rule, Benedict sets apart Sunday as the day for extra prayer and study of the scriptures.
As the first day of the week, Sunday can set the tone and rhythm for the week that is to follow.

What am I doing to set Sundays apart in my life?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

The Lord's Prayer at Common Prayer

2011-02-16T08:55:00.001-06:00

Assuredly, the celebration of Lauds and Vespers must never pass without the superior's reciting the entire Lord's Prayer at the end for all to hear, because thorns of contention are likely to spring up. Thus warned by the pledge they make to one another in the very words of this prayer: Forgive us as we forgive (Matt 6:12), they may cleanse themselves of this kind of vice. RB80. 13.12-13

Anytime that a group is gathered together to work on a project, be part of a team or interact closely for an extended period of time, differences of opinion, misunderstandings and minor hurts are likely to spring up. Benedict seems to have understood this concept from his observations of human nature. Knowing this potential, Benedict sets forth that the Lord's Prayer should be recited at least twice daily (morning and evening). This would serve as a gentle reminder that we are to be a forgiving people if we are to work for any length of time together in peace.

The line that Benedict focuses on is: Forgive us as we forgive (Matt 6.12). This line in the prayer helps me to remember that just as I am seeking God's mercy and forgiveness; others are also seeking the same from me. It helps me to remember that I need to work on my own faults first before I even consider holding others accountable for theirs. Good as I might want to appear, I am not above reproach.

This form of reality check helps me to be more patient and understanding with others. In a sense, we are all doing the best we can given our personal situations. This reminder helps me to be at least a little less judgemental of others (at least in theory).

How am I forgiving others today?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

On Giving Praise

2011-02-14T08:53:00.002-06:00

Today's selection from the Rule speaks about Lauds/Morning Praise/Morning Prayer. It is in all creation to praise God as our creator ceaselessly.

What are some practical ways in which this can be accomplished?

setting time aside daily to enjoy nature; to marvel at the beauty of creation
taking time to just sit and think--even for only a few minutes
writing a blessings/gratitude list, something that I can reread when days can seem long
spending time with a friend

These are just some of the ways in which I can increase my ability to praise God daily.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

On Laughter

2011-02-07T08:16:00.003-06:00

The tenth step of humility is that he is not given to ready laughter, for it is written: Only a fool raises his voice in laughter (Sir 21:23). RB80.7.59

The tenth step of humility seems, at first glance, to be totally against humor and mirth of any kind. Looking at the passage from the Book of Sirach to which this passage refers there is a sense that it is the shallowness of a person who laughs at anything at all that is being addressed.

A person of wisdom and stature would be able to discern the words that are worth listening to, be able to evaluate the content of the message and even the true message that might be found below the surface of words. That person would be able to evaluate whether laughter is an appropriate response or not.

An unwise person or one who has not reached full maturity might tend to laugh out of nervousness or the discomfort of an awkward pause. The wise person is able to sit silently and wait for the time to respond lovingly.

I desire to be that wise person--the one that seems to always know how to respond in any given situation. What am I doing today to increase that ability within myself? How am I learning to make silence my friend?

Please pray for the School of Lectio training which will be held this week at our monastery. May God bless all of the participants and staff with wisdom and peace.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Submitting to Authority

2011-01-31T11:00:00.002-06:00

The third step of humility is that a man submits to his superior in all obedience for the love of God, imitating the Lord of whom the Apostle says: He became obedient even to death (Phil 2:8) RB80.7.34

I like things MY way...I have always liked things MY way. MY way is generally best. There is a slight problem here, though. Most people I encounter feel the same about their system for doing things. So when there are so many different ways and all are the best, how to I decide what plan to follow to avoid chaos.

In the 3rd step of Humility, Benedict recommends obedience to legitimate authority for the love of God in keeping with Jesus' own obedience to the Father--an obedience that led to the Cross. That type of obedience definitely has a price...am I ready to be that obedient?

On my best days, I would like to say that I am ready to embrace another's way with only slight reservation...but that is only on my really awesome days. On most regular days, I am willing to at least consider obedience. How can I get more of those best days in my regular life?

LISTENING seems to be the key: listening to myself, to others, and to daily encounters opens me up to that obedience that I desire and of which Benedict speaks.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Refraining From Good Words

2011-01-24T08:44:00.002-06:00

Today, St. Benedict talks to us about silence and restraint of speech. In verse 1 of this chapter, Benedict asserts that there are times when even good words are to be foregone for the sake of silence. That sounds a little confusing to me...especially since I tend to be a person who loves to talk as much as possible. Why would I willingly refrain from speaking good words?

It's easy enough to understand the damage that can be done with false words, hurtful comments, and the truth that is used as a weapon against another rather than as a helpful tool...but not to say good words???

Maybe part of the key to this passage lies in understanding my attitude towards words. I often use words to avoid looking at hard issues within myself or listening to God speaking in the silence of my heart...in my prayer. It is much easier to distract myself with chatter and with trying to solve my own problems or help you solve yours than to sit still and listen to God's presence in my life. I need to remember that part of life's goal for me is not to have all the answers but to be at witness to God's presence in my life. I need to cultivate silence for that.

If I desire to be a person of depth and wisdom, I need to become familiar with silence and comfortable with it.

What am I doing to cultivate silence in my life today?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Please pray for the 55&Under All Federation Benedictine Sisters Gathering this weekend in Atchison, KS. Almost 100 professed Benedictine women from around the country will be gathering for prayer, friendship and education.

The Enclosure and Stability

2011-01-21T09:23:00.002-06:00

The workshop where we are to toil faithfully at all these tasks is the enclosure of the monastery and stability in the community. RB80.4.78

We have reached the end of the chapter on The Tools of Good Works. After listing 77 verses worth of instructions on how to use the various tools and virtues of the spiritual craft, Benedict tells us what the workshop for the spiritual craft is--the monastery and stability. Stay exactly where I am and do the next appropriate task.

That seems simple but it is not easy. It is simple since there is only one thing I need to focus on to achieve the task. It is not easy in that maintaining focus can sometimes be strenuous work.

It is in staying right where I am, doing just what I am supposed to do that will bring me growth, virtue and true joy. Maintaining my focus during the rough periods that are sure to come and persevering to the end will bring eternal rewards and great growth. I just need to remain faithful to the task.

What am I doing today for my own growth?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

God's Gaze

2011-01-20T15:05:00.002-06:00

Hour by hour keep careful watch over all you do, aware that God's gaze is upon you, wherever you may be. RB80.4.48-49

I grew up with a very real sense that God is everywhere and is an active part of my life. Much of this sense was nurtured by my grandparents who would spend hours telling me about the saints and how the Christian life was part of everyday life.

When my grandmother would teach me about God being her father and Jesus being her brother...I took it literally. This understanding encouraged me to make my faith my own also as I matured.

Today, Benedict invites me to reexamine this thinking and find new ways in which I can make God's presence active for those whom I meet today.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Calling All to Counsel

2011-01-17T10:18:00.002-06:00

In the monastery no one is to follow his own heart's desire, nor shall anyone presume to contend with his abbot defiantly, or outside the monastery. RB80.3.8-9

The good of the whole should outweigh the wants or desires of the individual. This is another way of saying, "I can't get my own way all the time. The good of the whole group will always take precedence."

As hard as it is to learn and accept this precept, it is one that is definitely needed for working well in groups--family, team, workplace, community. Without some compromise and dialogue on all sides, very little productive work can be accomplished.

While my natural tendency might be to throw a temper tantrum and let the world know just how unfair and miserable things are for me--having to submit my own desires and will, these tirades do little to better my situation or to help me build community.

It is in fully participating in the decision making process that I grow within the group and that the whole benefits from whatever wisdom I may have to share.

What am I doing today to improve the quality of community?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Do Not Gloss Over Faults

2011-01-13T07:27:00.002-06:00

He should not gloss over the sins of those who err, but cut them out while he can, as soon as they begin to sprout, remembering the fate of Eli, priest of Shiloh (1Sam2.11--4.18). RB80.2.26

The leader today is called to remember the fate of Eli and act accordingly with the community. The story referenced in this passage is an account of the evil deeds performed by the sons Eli, while he was priest of Shiloh. His sons would regularly abuse the power that was part of their office--disdain the Lord, steal from the sacrifice and abuse those who were coming to worship. Eli was not able to get his sons to change their bad behavior or reprove them. Therefore, God punished Eli and his sons for their deeds.

The abbot or superior is to be like the priest who was the guardian of the Temple. Keeping watch over the actions of all who worshiped.

Benedict reminds the abbot to call to the attention of the individual areas of concern that needed to be addressed. It is the responsibility of the leader to bring up faults that need amending and to support those who stray as they strive to change their ways. Neglecting to do so could endanger both the group and the individual. The leader does no one any favors by ignoring areas of growth.

As a community member, I also have a duty to respond honestly and to remain open to the call to growth. How am I growing today?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Good Works and Humility

2011-01-12T09:06:00.002-06:00

Only in this are we distinguished in his sight: if we are found better than others in good works and in humility. RB80.2.21

I am always looking for that one thing which will set me apart from others...that special little thing that gives me the desired edge in life. Today, Benedict gives me insight into what sets me apart in community, on a team, in God's sight.

The secret: being better than others in good works and in humility. Doing what I am called to do; being who I was created to be and working diligently at that.

How can I accomplish this?

Doing the loving, caring thing...even when no one is watching.
Doing the next appropriate thing quietly. I don't have to announce everytime I do something kind or unexpected for another.
Offering to help out but not insisting on being the center of attention.
Remembering that everything in life does not have to be about ME.
Using my competitive nature to the best in doing good quietly and patiently.

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Teaching by Example

2011-01-11T14:01:00.002-06:00

Furthermore, anyone who receives the name of abbot is to lead his disciples by a twofold teaching: he must point out to them all that is good and holy more by example than by words, proposing the commandments of the Lord to receptive disciples with words, but demonstrating God's instructions to the stubborn and the dull by a living example. RB80.2.11-12

We have all heard it said that actions speak louder than words. Today, Benedict takes a similar approach when addressing the leader about teaching God's ways. To those who are docile and agreeable teach through words; for those who might be more resistant teach through the example of your life--be a role model for others for the good.

When I was younger, I remember someone telling me once that I could take any of my elders as a role model--they could either show me what to do to have a happy and successful life or I could learn what not to do by learning from the mistakes of others. The choice is totally mine whether to follow the good example of others or the misguided example. I can choose my destiny everyday.

That idea has stuck with me as I have matured in community. It has also occurred to me that I can be that same kind of role model for others also. Do I want to be a model for the good of community or a model of what not to do?

I pray for the grace to consistently be a model of good and virtue. What kind of model am I today?

Sr. Catherine, OSB

Holding the Place of Christ

2011-01-10T08:24:00.002-06:00

In more than one place in the Rule, Benedict reminds us that the leader of the monastery or the group should be considered to stand in the place of Christ. That is an enormous task for anyone to consider.

In being in the place of Christ, I need to try to adopt the attitudes and mindset of Jesus whenever I am offered a position of authority. What are some of the characteristics of this mindset?

Humility--In his ministry, Jesus was very aware of his relationship with God and with those to whom he ministered. He led out of that awareness.
Service--Jesus was more likely to be the one to serve the rest rather than claim authority.
Prayer--Prayer, solitude and silence were essential to his leadership and his ministry.
Truth--He spoke the truth that he heard within himself. He was consistent in his message without counting the cost.

What am I doing today to put the mindset of Christ into practice today?

Sr. Catherine, OSB